Hi Everyone;
I am Umut. I am Turkish. I live in Turkey. I would like to share my testimony with you. I hope you could understand. I mean my english is not enough good to write my testimony but I tried
And I hope it will be blessing for your life. And I hope after you read you will remember me and all christians in Turkey. God bless you all, in the name of the Jesus Our Lord,GOD. Amen.
Here is my testimony,
My name is Umut. I study Economics and i am 25.
I spent most of my chilhood with my grandmather and grandfather until
i was 4 cause of my family, i mean my mother and father worked in
different cities. My grand family, i mean my mom's family were great
Muslim. I am not sure, but i think when i was about 4, i started the
Quran school, it means basic Qouran lessons. It was about how the
muslims must read Quran and why, and it was about the arabic alphabet
for Quran. And basic prayers from Quran. Maybe you know, if you are
Muslim you cannot pray to allah however you want. If you want to
woship allah you must learn some verses from Quran by your heart. And
you can just read or tell them from your mine. And if you are muslim
you must know them.
And my family moved in izmir. Both of them started to work in izmir.
Cause of this i came in izmir. But i went to denizli every holidays
which city that my grandfamily lived. So i was contunie my Quran
school. I continued this school in summers till i graduate from middle
class. I used to live like citizen of izmir after i graduate middle
class. It means i was drinking, i was smoking or more. At this time i
didn't want hear about god or allah, and beliefs and religions. I
hated all peous people. In the high school, i start to relation with
creator. I didn't said allah, because i didn't fell myself like muslim
anymore in that times. Because islam had a lot of rules. Those was so
hard to carry. I want my god whom obey my rules. I could enjoy myself
at the same time i could worship to creator. And i met with metal
music, especially hard metal like death and black metal which is
satanic. And i started play guitar. Music was my life. However i read
philopshy and mithology. And then , just little times later i found
myself in the Greek Mithology. You may think it was ridicoulos or it
was real comedy. But i really believed it. Everday i waas reading
about these gods and their character. That was amazing for me because
those gods could do evertihg which i could do like drinking. Now when
i remember that times i'm just laughing. The philosophy, especially
early age of phiolosophy helped me to bind those gods. I never
interested with Bible or Jesus. I have never read the Bible. The bible
was the big jews lie. That was only thing that i knew about bible. The
old testament had maden fit by jews altough new testament by apostles.
But little times later i started afraid of real creator. It means
actually i knew i just wanted to satisfy myself . not more. It means
if god exist, he must be alone. And i knew, my gods that i believed
were the products of human mine. Not more. And i took refuge to islam
again. But this time i was a great muslim. There is 5 conditions in
islam for being muslim. And i did everthing without 2 conditions.
Someday, one of my friends wanted me to go with him to culturel
center. I remember it was Sunday. First i didn't accept but when he
sad there was a a lot of people whom from diffirent countries and
especially a lot beatiful girls, i didn't think a lot. It means i
accepted with him. I met with 2 people; one from America who name is
Eric and one from Australia who name is Daren in that place. But i
must admit. I just saw one thing when i went into there. I remember it
was a black TAMA drums. And i remember he was right. It means there
was a lot of beatiful girls. But i couldn't have enough time talk with
them . because a little while later they started to sing worship
songs. They sang songs to Jesus. It was a real shocked for me. Because
i though it was culturel center but it wasn't. I though that we ate
something and we had conversation. But we didn't. I remember i was
very angry. I remember just one thing that my friend told me "Don't be
afraid. They don't eat you" . but i was far away from there as soon as
the songs finish with the new testament which they gave me before
start the sing. Until that time i though i was not afraid of reading.
But i had been afraid. Because i threw it away. I didn't read read it.
I'm not sure, but i think 2 or 3 weeks later, i would meet with my
friends, but nobady came. I called everyone. And they said they were
busy. And it was Sunday. I still don't know why and how, but i went to
chuch. At this time i knew it was a church. At this time i listened
them and i got new testment again. And i started to read it. I saw
those which i read couldn't be a big jews lies. Because i saw they
were meaninful. But i had still some questions. I went to church again
and again. Someday we met with Daren. At those times he spoke a very
bad Turkish like this time i spoke english. I told him that i felt
nearness with Christian belief. As soon as i told it, he holded my
hand and started to pray for me in Turkish that he could. After his
prayer, he wanted me to open my heart to Jesus. It was a second real
shocked for me. He though that i told him i want to be a christian,
but i didn't. I didn't want to strain him. So i prayed with him. I sad
myself "I can try it". It means christianity. It didn't matter for me,
because i could come back to islam. At that night i prayed to Jesus at
first time. Most people say "At my first prayer i feel so happy". But
i didn't feel it. I think i'm learning from the hard ways. The
following day i gave a bible to my mom. She shouted me. Then i tried
to give it my dad. And he shouted me too. It was a third real shocked
for me. I remember i had felt very bad. I believed in Jesus anymore
but i still lived like a muslim. But God changed my life day by day.
For example, i haven't listen hard metal music nomore. I prefered to
be with Daren and Eric then my friens. In this year i moved to Antalya
for study Food Proccess Engineering in Mediterrian Univercity. In
Antalya, i met with Hans Who is my old pastor and my systhematic
theology teacher. I learnt some basic spiritual truths from him. In
the beginnig, we were just 7 or 8 christian in Antalya. We plant
Antalya Bible Church together. Now there is 60 people in this chruch.
I must confess, i did a lot of bad things in Antalya. Most times i
chosed to enjoy myself. But Thaks God!, he never left me. At my last
times in Antalya, my second pastor whose name is Ed from America,
wanted me to go to Bible school. It was the fourth shokced for me. And
accepted. It means i went to bible college. Those times were the
hardest times in my Christian Life. Because i met with the truth. It
means i learnt about God. Before i went to Antalya i had been a real
carismatic. I believed god whose more week than me. The learning truth
was the very hard for me. And i try to escape from Him again. ı had
forgotten his promise for me "I will never leave you nor forsake you".
I did nothing for him but he did. And i think, i cannot do anything to
give him to glory, but he can. I understood this. Actually he
explained it to me. It means i can try to believe him but i must
remember this verse "And the hand of the lord was with them, and a
great number believed and turned to the Lord". I could try to give him
to glory, but He showed me these verses:
"But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excelence of
the power may be of God and not of us."
"For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works,
which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them."
"For it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure."
In this school He explained himself to me. But i understood them after
i met with Fikret(He's my new pastor who graduated from Westminister
Thology Seminary). God used Fikret to teach me about Himself and His
Words.
And i asked myself some question. I understood that i didn't know my
God when lived in Antalya. I asked myself Could i believe Him if i
don't know him? Maybe i could. But could i obey His words or could i
love him with my soul, with my heart and with my mind. This verse
showed me that it was impossible:
"For this reason i also suffer these things; neverthless I am not
ashamed ,for I know WhomI have believed and am persuaded that he is
able to keep what I have comitted to Him until that Day."
And now, i know there is no law to save me from the death in the world:
"But that no one is justified by the law in the sight of God is
evident for "the just shall live by faith"".
"But if you are led by the spirit, you are not under the law."
And now i know my God. He still teaches me about Himself and His
spiritual truths. And now i know who i am. You can say you are Umut,
or you can ask who am i. I want to introduce my self with these words:
"Altough, i was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent
man; but i obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. And
the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love
which are in Christ Jesus. This is a faithful saying and whorty of all
acceptance ,that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of
whom I am chief. However for this reason, I obtained mercy that in me
first Jesus Christ might show all long-suffering, as a pattern to
those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life.
I am Umut. I am Turkish. I live in Turkey. I would like to share my testimony with you. I hope you could understand. I mean my english is not enough good to write my testimony but I tried
And I hope it will be blessing for your life. And I hope after you read you will remember me and all christians in Turkey. God bless you all, in the name of the Jesus Our Lord,GOD. Amen.Here is my testimony,
My name is Umut. I study Economics and i am 25.
I spent most of my chilhood with my grandmather and grandfather until
i was 4 cause of my family, i mean my mother and father worked in
different cities. My grand family, i mean my mom's family were great
Muslim. I am not sure, but i think when i was about 4, i started the
Quran school, it means basic Qouran lessons. It was about how the
muslims must read Quran and why, and it was about the arabic alphabet
for Quran. And basic prayers from Quran. Maybe you know, if you are
Muslim you cannot pray to allah however you want. If you want to
woship allah you must learn some verses from Quran by your heart. And
you can just read or tell them from your mine. And if you are muslim
you must know them.
And my family moved in izmir. Both of them started to work in izmir.
Cause of this i came in izmir. But i went to denizli every holidays
which city that my grandfamily lived. So i was contunie my Quran
school. I continued this school in summers till i graduate from middle
class. I used to live like citizen of izmir after i graduate middle
class. It means i was drinking, i was smoking or more. At this time i
didn't want hear about god or allah, and beliefs and religions. I
hated all peous people. In the high school, i start to relation with
creator. I didn't said allah, because i didn't fell myself like muslim
anymore in that times. Because islam had a lot of rules. Those was so
hard to carry. I want my god whom obey my rules. I could enjoy myself
at the same time i could worship to creator. And i met with metal
music, especially hard metal like death and black metal which is
satanic. And i started play guitar. Music was my life. However i read
philopshy and mithology. And then , just little times later i found
myself in the Greek Mithology. You may think it was ridicoulos or it
was real comedy. But i really believed it. Everday i waas reading
about these gods and their character. That was amazing for me because
those gods could do evertihg which i could do like drinking. Now when
i remember that times i'm just laughing. The philosophy, especially
early age of phiolosophy helped me to bind those gods. I never
interested with Bible or Jesus. I have never read the Bible. The bible
was the big jews lie. That was only thing that i knew about bible. The
old testament had maden fit by jews altough new testament by apostles.
But little times later i started afraid of real creator. It means
actually i knew i just wanted to satisfy myself . not more. It means
if god exist, he must be alone. And i knew, my gods that i believed
were the products of human mine. Not more. And i took refuge to islam
again. But this time i was a great muslim. There is 5 conditions in
islam for being muslim. And i did everthing without 2 conditions.
Someday, one of my friends wanted me to go with him to culturel
center. I remember it was Sunday. First i didn't accept but when he
sad there was a a lot of people whom from diffirent countries and
especially a lot beatiful girls, i didn't think a lot. It means i
accepted with him. I met with 2 people; one from America who name is
Eric and one from Australia who name is Daren in that place. But i
must admit. I just saw one thing when i went into there. I remember it
was a black TAMA drums. And i remember he was right. It means there
was a lot of beatiful girls. But i couldn't have enough time talk with
them . because a little while later they started to sing worship
songs. They sang songs to Jesus. It was a real shocked for me. Because
i though it was culturel center but it wasn't. I though that we ate
something and we had conversation. But we didn't. I remember i was
very angry. I remember just one thing that my friend told me "Don't be
afraid. They don't eat you" . but i was far away from there as soon as
the songs finish with the new testament which they gave me before
start the sing. Until that time i though i was not afraid of reading.
But i had been afraid. Because i threw it away. I didn't read read it.
I'm not sure, but i think 2 or 3 weeks later, i would meet with my
friends, but nobady came. I called everyone. And they said they were
busy. And it was Sunday. I still don't know why and how, but i went to
chuch. At this time i knew it was a church. At this time i listened
them and i got new testment again. And i started to read it. I saw
those which i read couldn't be a big jews lies. Because i saw they
were meaninful. But i had still some questions. I went to church again
and again. Someday we met with Daren. At those times he spoke a very
bad Turkish like this time i spoke english. I told him that i felt
nearness with Christian belief. As soon as i told it, he holded my
hand and started to pray for me in Turkish that he could. After his
prayer, he wanted me to open my heart to Jesus. It was a second real
shocked for me. He though that i told him i want to be a christian,
but i didn't. I didn't want to strain him. So i prayed with him. I sad
myself "I can try it". It means christianity. It didn't matter for me,
because i could come back to islam. At that night i prayed to Jesus at
first time. Most people say "At my first prayer i feel so happy". But
i didn't feel it. I think i'm learning from the hard ways. The
following day i gave a bible to my mom. She shouted me. Then i tried
to give it my dad. And he shouted me too. It was a third real shocked
for me. I remember i had felt very bad. I believed in Jesus anymore
but i still lived like a muslim. But God changed my life day by day.
For example, i haven't listen hard metal music nomore. I prefered to
be with Daren and Eric then my friens. In this year i moved to Antalya
for study Food Proccess Engineering in Mediterrian Univercity. In
Antalya, i met with Hans Who is my old pastor and my systhematic
theology teacher. I learnt some basic spiritual truths from him. In
the beginnig, we were just 7 or 8 christian in Antalya. We plant
Antalya Bible Church together. Now there is 60 people in this chruch.
I must confess, i did a lot of bad things in Antalya. Most times i
chosed to enjoy myself. But Thaks God!, he never left me. At my last
times in Antalya, my second pastor whose name is Ed from America,
wanted me to go to Bible school. It was the fourth shokced for me. And
accepted. It means i went to bible college. Those times were the
hardest times in my Christian Life. Because i met with the truth. It
means i learnt about God. Before i went to Antalya i had been a real
carismatic. I believed god whose more week than me. The learning truth
was the very hard for me. And i try to escape from Him again. ı had
forgotten his promise for me "I will never leave you nor forsake you".
I did nothing for him but he did. And i think, i cannot do anything to
give him to glory, but he can. I understood this. Actually he
explained it to me. It means i can try to believe him but i must
remember this verse "And the hand of the lord was with them, and a
great number believed and turned to the Lord". I could try to give him
to glory, but He showed me these verses:
"But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excelence of
the power may be of God and not of us."
"For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works,
which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them."
"For it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure."
In this school He explained himself to me. But i understood them after
i met with Fikret(He's my new pastor who graduated from Westminister
Thology Seminary). God used Fikret to teach me about Himself and His
Words.
And i asked myself some question. I understood that i didn't know my
God when lived in Antalya. I asked myself Could i believe Him if i
don't know him? Maybe i could. But could i obey His words or could i
love him with my soul, with my heart and with my mind. This verse
showed me that it was impossible:
"For this reason i also suffer these things; neverthless I am not
ashamed ,for I know WhomI have believed and am persuaded that he is
able to keep what I have comitted to Him until that Day."
And now, i know there is no law to save me from the death in the world:
"But that no one is justified by the law in the sight of God is
evident for "the just shall live by faith"".
"But if you are led by the spirit, you are not under the law."
And now i know my God. He still teaches me about Himself and His
spiritual truths. And now i know who i am. You can say you are Umut,
or you can ask who am i. I want to introduce my self with these words:
"Altough, i was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent
man; but i obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. And
the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love
which are in Christ Jesus. This is a faithful saying and whorty of all
acceptance ,that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of
whom I am chief. However for this reason, I obtained mercy that in me
first Jesus Christ might show all long-suffering, as a pattern to
those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life.
Umut, I just opened this thread and I want to tell you how happy I am for you. 
