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peacedweller
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dont normally post here but, today is a different day and feel i need to. please understand i am a woman after God's heart and i KNOW what i'm suppose to do.....just some days, well.....here it is.
Forgiveness. I’m trying….today I’m angry.
Perhaps it would be easier to forgive, if not for, the mental and bodily memories that I suffer every day and night. A life sentence of disabling pain. The offender never charged. His life gos on destroying others in his path. Family still accepts him, even coddles and pity’s him, while victims/survivors are expected to “get over it and move on.”
A court trail should be held when a survivor reaches adulthood. To prosecute and sue the offender for physical and emotional homicide to the victim. The deviant should be made to pay all medical cost and lost wages accrued throughout the survivor’s years, as well as serving his prison sentence.
No, money doesn’t “solve” it. What it does do, is allow the survivor to be treated medically when unable to work. Money for all the mental therapy, hospitals, physical illness and disease, surgeries. He has cost me Hundreds of thousands of dollars . My disease is directly linked by his and others abuse to me.
Doctors & scientist have proven it.
I am not whining....I'm hurting and this is the facts, it is the truth….this is the cost of surviving.
Signs of childhood abuse & trauma may go undiagnosed for years.
Years after the abuse when the survivor marries or has children or after raising his/her family or preparing to retire….. when, all of a sudden no longer able to function. Only to learn the extent of physical and mental disease that was caused by the abuser!
Abuse equals a lifetime of medical and mental disabilities. Poor health. Lifetime of pain. Physical, mental, spiritual and a soul in chronic pain.
Abuse often equals diseases of varying kinds.
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Personality Disorders, Anxiety, PtSD, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Pain, inability to sustain a relationship; marriage, friendship, family relationships, the list goes on….it’s a life time of pain. Indescribable pain to the victim/ survivor…whom is sentenced and punished for horrific abuse that was against them.
thank you for listening, allowing a space to vent without judgement....thank you Jesus for hearing my pain.
Forgiveness. I’m trying….today I’m angry.
Perhaps it would be easier to forgive, if not for, the mental and bodily memories that I suffer every day and night. A life sentence of disabling pain. The offender never charged. His life gos on destroying others in his path. Family still accepts him, even coddles and pity’s him, while victims/survivors are expected to “get over it and move on.”
A court trail should be held when a survivor reaches adulthood. To prosecute and sue the offender for physical and emotional homicide to the victim. The deviant should be made to pay all medical cost and lost wages accrued throughout the survivor’s years, as well as serving his prison sentence.
No, money doesn’t “solve” it. What it does do, is allow the survivor to be treated medically when unable to work. Money for all the mental therapy, hospitals, physical illness and disease, surgeries. He has cost me Hundreds of thousands of dollars . My disease is directly linked by his and others abuse to me.
Doctors & scientist have proven it.
I am not whining....I'm hurting and this is the facts, it is the truth….this is the cost of surviving.
Signs of childhood abuse & trauma may go undiagnosed for years.
Years after the abuse when the survivor marries or has children or after raising his/her family or preparing to retire….. when, all of a sudden no longer able to function. Only to learn the extent of physical and mental disease that was caused by the abuser!
Abuse equals a lifetime of medical and mental disabilities. Poor health. Lifetime of pain. Physical, mental, spiritual and a soul in chronic pain.
Abuse often equals diseases of varying kinds.
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Personality Disorders, Anxiety, PtSD, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Pain, inability to sustain a relationship; marriage, friendship, family relationships, the list goes on….it’s a life time of pain. Indescribable pain to the victim/ survivor…whom is sentenced and punished for horrific abuse that was against them.
thank you for listening, allowing a space to vent without judgement....thank you Jesus for hearing my pain.
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