For my daughter

[Alaskamomma]

Hello all, I would like to ask prayers for my daughter, Lauren. Sadly, she was diagnosed last year with the same disorder that I have, bipolar. She was on Abilify for about 10 months and it started to cause distonia in her (muscle rigedness) so we are weaning her off of it. This has caused her symptoms to flair up worse than ever before. She constantly talks about hating everyone and how she wants to die. She says things like she wish she was never born and then has crying fits that lasts for hours.

Believe me when I say it is extremely painful and difficult to see her like this. Not much at this point can be done. Our kids are trying to understand, but they can't grasp why she is acting like this and they think it is unfair because they know they would get into trouble if they acted like this. But Lauren can't help it. Her Bipolar is worse than mine.

Her Psych Doc ordered blood work on her and it took Reg, me and another nurse to hold her while the attendant drew blood, or tried to. Her veins are so small that they couldn't get a lot of blood, but the nurse said hopefully it was enough. The hospital called a while ago and said they have to have Lauren back and redraw again. I don't want to tell her.

We are at our wits end. We have tried the mean discplinarian role with her and it doesn't work. We have tried the loving and quiet nurturing role. It doesn't work. Nothing we seem to do helps. She just can't help her emotions.

So my prayer request is that first of all she be brave and calm when we take her back to get blood work. And second of all that God would have His way with her and her little spirit find some peace.

I tear up as I write this because somehow in all of this I think it is my fault. It is from me she got this... I am angry with God and I am angry with me.

Please pray.

 

[FragileWinter]

I understand your anger and frustration but it's not your fault. You can't control your genetics. How could you choose what your child inherited? Bipolar is proven to be a genetic disorder by several sources.

Secondly, God does certain things for reasons we cannot understand. Sometimes when things get to hard he wants us to lean on him. I know this can be very hard. I have gone through situations that I have tried to change and have tried to find a way through things. Sometimes we have to do the little things we can and let the bigger things go to him.

I will pray for you on my own and request prayer for you at my church class. God Bless.

 

[Alive again]

alaskamomma, My prayers are with you! I have walked this path with my son. So I understand the heartbreak. I have been told, but never read that the bipolar child is a good resource book . I just sat through a disability hearing with my 21 yo son yesterday. He is on a better med and in a much better place now after some hard hard times. he said to me yesterday, I don't know how you ever put up with me and what I was like during those teenage years. I remember my husband sitting on one side and me on the other as he raged and sobbed between us, oh my dear, this is so not your fault! I know you know that, but I do understand how you feel, My son's case is also worse than mine. Read Jeremiah 29:11 again and think of God speaking these words for your dear daughter, for those words are truth! Your daughter is beloved of God just as you are and He has a plan! Prayers!!!!!! Hugs!!!!

 

[bipolarbear]

Sweetheart, do not place your anger with the Lord It is not for us to understand why, rather to have faith like little children, in He who is all knowing! I look at my special needs child and hurt for him, and Though my situation is not anything like what you are going through, take comfort that we all love you here, and we are all praying... Do what the Lord leads you to do, and keep the fire burning in your faith for Him, no matter what your eyes see, He lives in your Heart... What you cherish, we cannot fathom how much He also cherishes too! Do not forget, God Is Love! 's and 's

I will bring this befor the Lord on my knees on your behalf that He stretch out His hand of mercy, compassion, and love over your situation. May His will be done!

Sometimes, and I know this may not make sence, but I feel prompted to say this, and I don't quite know why, but sometimes the unanswered prayers are blessings too... ing for you and your family, especially your cherished daughter...

 

[powerofprayer]

I know exactly how broken your heart is right now. I'm going through the same thing with my little girl. Words can't describe...
My daughter is on Abilify and Depakote. But even on these meds, she was put in a "behavioral center" in May for suicidal thoughts and risk taking behavior. She's only 12! It is so painful and I feel so helpless.
I will keep you, Lauren and your whole family in my prayers. God will give us the strength to get through this...one day at a time.
Take care & God bless.
Sandy

P.S. One of the nurses at the hospital told me that God only gives special needs children to special moms...that's what makes it so special!

 

[DoesAnybodyHearHer]

praying for you and her!!!

 

[searchingforpeace]

Hello all, I would like to ask prayers for my daughter, Lauren. Sadly, she was diagnosed last year with the same disorder that I have, bipolar. She was on Abilify for about 10 months and it started to cause distonia in her (muscle rigedness) so we are weaning her off of it. This has caused her symptoms to flair up worse than ever before. She constantly talks about hating everyone and how she wants to die. She says things like she wish she was never born and then has crying fits that lasts for hours.

Believe me when I say it is extremely painful and difficult to see her like this. Not much at this point can be done. Our kids are trying to understand, but they can't grasp why she is acting like this and they think it is unfair because they know they would get into trouble if they acted like this. But Lauren can't help it. Her Bipolar is worse than mine.

Her Psych Doc ordered blood work on her and it took Reg, me and another nurse to hold her while the attendant drew blood, or tried to. Her veins are so small that they couldn't get a lot of blood, but the nurse said hopefully it was enough. The hospital called a while ago and said they have to have Lauren back and redraw again. I don't want to tell her.

We are at our wits end. We have tried the mean discplinarian role with her and it doesn't work. We have tried the loving and quiet nurturing role. It doesn't work. Nothing we seem to do helps. She just can't help her emotions.

So my prayer request is that first of all she be brave and calm when we take her back to get blood work. And second of all that God would have His way with her and her little spirit find some peace.

I tear up as I write this because somehow in all of this I think it is my fault. It is from me she got this... I am angry with God and I am angry with me.

Please pray.

I am praying for your daughter, you and your family. It must be hard to watch this and feel helpless. Hopefully once she is off the Ablilfy and on something new it will help. My mom had to go through the same thing with me, but I did not have my dx then, she was just told I was an out of control brat. I am thankful that now children do get the dx, so at least that is a starting point. Big hugs to her and to you. Praying

 

[Alaskamomma]

Thank you all for your prayers and words of encouragement. I am feeling a little bit better this morning. We are giving it a couple of days and will be returning her to the dr's for the redraw on her blood. I think we will push to have her put to sleep so we can take the blood without her going into hstyerics again. That is so hard to watch. So hard to bear.

Thanks again to you all... it is comforting to know I am not going through this alone.

 

[angelkiss]

Many prayers going up for you and your family
s and es!!

 

[bipolarbear]

Still will be on my good old knees praying away for your daughter, adn family...

 

[powerofprayer]

Just wanted to let you know I am still praying for you, Lauren, and your whole family. Hope things are getting better. PM me if you want to talk.
God bless,
Sandy

 

[Alaskamomma]

Thank you, Sandy and all, Lauren is doing some what better. We finally got her blood taken, but not without it being an ordeal. But atleast it doesn't have to be done for a year. Her manias are still a little volatile, but we are managing.

Thanks for you guys' support!!!

 

[Alive again]

Your are welcome and prayers will continue!