Everything has change
My life is not the same
I just wanted you to stay
but you had to go you went away
As I lay on my bed
Memories race in my head
Trying to remember things you said
I can not believe that you are dead
My heart torn apart
don't know where to start
The guilt is unbearable
many things unchangeable
As I try to heal
stop hiding what I feel
The door has been closed
I can't see you no more
I have to move on
help me be strong
when I feel alone
you jump into my zone
Everything has changed
and will never be the same
your promises broken
lost words you had spoken
want to see through
don't know what to do
stressed to the max
no time to relax
You gave up on life
and left your sweet wife
these nightmares in my head
wake me up crying in my bed
Why did you jump
I'm feeling so stumped
Wish I was there
didn't you know I cared
Thought I knew you
but I could not see through
Guess I was blind
desperate face in my mind
Hoplessness took over
now we sit here in sorrow
can't believe your gone
as I listen to your song
you gave up the fight
and went to the light
where you wanted to be,
now you are truly free
Fathers death too much to take
You hid the pain by being fake
Had a song we were to do
but I can't stop this ones for you
Dedicated in loving Memory of my Big Brother Chad who died May 28/2004
My life is not the same
I just wanted you to stay
but you had to go you went away
As I lay on my bed
Memories race in my head
Trying to remember things you said
I can not believe that you are dead
My heart torn apart
don't know where to start
The guilt is unbearable
many things unchangeable
As I try to heal
stop hiding what I feel
The door has been closed
I can't see you no more
I have to move on
help me be strong
when I feel alone
you jump into my zone
Everything has changed
and will never be the same
your promises broken
lost words you had spoken
want to see through
don't know what to do
stressed to the max
no time to relax
You gave up on life
and left your sweet wife
these nightmares in my head
wake me up crying in my bed
Why did you jump
I'm feeling so stumped
Wish I was there
didn't you know I cared
Thought I knew you
but I could not see through
Guess I was blind
desperate face in my mind
Hoplessness took over
now we sit here in sorrow
can't believe your gone
as I listen to your song
you gave up the fight
and went to the light
where you wanted to be,
now you are truly free
Fathers death too much to take
You hid the pain by being fake
Had a song we were to do
but I can't stop this ones for you
Dedicated in loving Memory of my Big Brother Chad who died May 28/2004
