Following Jesus

[RSteel]

When I was 15 years old, I decided to follow Jesus. I know only I can know this for sure, but I'm certain I made that decision. At first, it was difficult...I didn't speak to anyone for a long long time, but then, slowly, things got easier. EVERYTHING in my life began to improve before my eyes...my acne, my life in general...everything. Now, 5 years down the road...things have taken a turn, for the worse. My question is, once a person decides to follow Jesus, can they then turn around and then decide NOT to follow Jesus? I KNOW in my HEART that I made that decision that day when I was 15. Is my current situation a part of God's plan? Is this what He meant for me? Is this what was "supposed" to happen after I decided to follow Jesus? Well, I would just like an outside perspective on this...it would help a lot...thank you.

Also, if you would like to know my current situation...well, I've fallen into a huge depression...and well, it just seems impossible to get out of... I mean, I don't cut myself, I don't do any of those things, but then again I can hardly get out of bed at times, and I can't sleep at night. Anyways, any input would be greatly appreciated...thank you.

 

[mikeforjesus]

It looks like you could have clinical depression - search what it is at google.com .
Or alot of it could be spiritual whether with sin or trial so I recommend u read the psalms it helps me get through my life.. If u find u do have clinical depression it doesnt seem like it will hurt to see a psychologist they might prescribe u antidepressants that will help.
Also reading the bible in general at this time is really cool coz only in pain of heart are we able to receive Gods revelations personally.
I will pray for you that u get the help u need and to get out of this depression and learn many things through it.
I know it can be overcome because ive been having a joy lately even without the antidepressants from my time with God.. but I still have some functioning problems so I started taking antidepressants too and if God wants it to work it will and if not ill get off them.
Sorry I dont know what else to say.. except I KNOW things will get better if you dont forget God.

 

[beetlequeendiva]

Hey, it sounds as though you were sailing through life and then you came back to earth with a bump - please please remember that following Jesus is not easy, it sounds as though you're taking it more difficult because things were easy. I will pray for you, try to get some help.

 

[RSteel]

Thank you so much for the input. I will look into getting some help with my depression and will also seek God's help first and foremost on this issue. I know it's not easy and not all of my questions can be answered just because I ask them. Thank you for the advice Mike, and yes, Diva, I was sailing through life then came back down...very rapidly. And no, following Jesus isn't easy...I guess I just wish I knew where I stood with Him on everything. Of course there is sin in my life, and I'm sure that's the reason for the clinical depression. Well anyways, I know things get better with Christ and God, so I'll just keep going and posting more and more. Thanks everyone.

 

[BlackRain]

Is my current situation a part of God's plan? Is this what He meant for me? Is this what was "supposed" to happen after I decided to follow Jesus? Well, I would just like an outside perspective on this...it would help a lot...thank you.

God knew your situation before he created the world. he knew what would happen. i believe that what happens in life God's plan for the individual. while it may be difficult and horrible, it's in his plan for your life. unfortunetly, God doesn't have to give reasons for things, he just asks for you to trust him and love him. that's the hard part. i want you to know that God cares for you and loves you like CRAZY!! i used to be depressed, so much that i couldn't get out of bed. i couldn't feel Christ and i didn't really want to, either. but, one day i heard someone read in the book of psalms...and man, it lifted me up. i wasn't hollering for joy or anything, but something was different that day. so, i encourage you to read some psalms! it may give your some encouragement.

Father i ask that you be with RSteel as he/she is struggling right now. you know the situation better than anyone, so i ask that you would tend to his/her needs. i pray that he/she would feel you so close tonight. encourage him/her and lift him up!! Lord, give RSteel the strength each day to press on. help him/her to feel better and make tomorrow so much brighter. Let him/her know how much you love him/her!!
amen.

 

[beetlequeendiva]

Thank you so much for the input. I will look into getting some help with my depression and will also seek God's help first and foremost on this issue. I know it's not easy and not all of my questions can be answered just because I ask them. Thank you for the advice Mike, and yes, Diva, I was sailing through life then came back down...very rapidly. And no, following Jesus isn't easy...I guess I just wish I knew where I stood with Him on everything. Of course there is sin in my life, and I'm sure that's the reason for the clinical depression. Well anyways, I know things get better with Christ and God, so I'll just keep going and posting more and more. Thanks everyone.

I was not having a go at you by saying you were sailing through life, it just seems to me that you were. I think that everyone wishes they could figure out why they felt certain ways and where they stood with God. I don't believe that your sin caused depression - God gives us struggles to make us stronger and one day you will be so strong. Remember He never gives us more than we can deal with.