I live in a first world nation, with third world problems.
I was never told about religion, it was never spoken of when I was growing up. God came into my life a few years ago, my testimony explains the story.
Now, very much isolated, I find myself staring at the sky a lot, and then noticing people staring at me like I'm out of my mind, which I am.
I'm so amazed by all the things God's given us, like how we breathe when we aren't thinking about it. How my fingers and brain work together to type this.
The ability to be human is so unappreciated.
I'm constantly caught off guard by something where I can only tilt my head and stare, and wonder.
Once I go back in to the reality around me, I realize no one sees that there is a giant cloud that looks JUST LIKE a delicious cupcake because they're circling the police tape, to get a glimpse of death.
My mom tells me I'm different. I used to think it was a good thing.
but I can't find a job.
I can't do anything most people see as a piece of cake, like putting mail in the mailbox or asking someone for directions, without completely panicking.
I don't think I am a good person, I know I am. and I accept my brain is not wired correctly, so why are there so many more people who can make up their minds faster, and do things correctly, who choose not to?
All around me are people with no shame.
Pregnant Teens.
Drug addicts.
Sadists.
Hopeless.
Homeless.
Prostitutes.
Desperation.
and in all this, I see them begging and crying for God to help them when they've hit rock bottom because of their poor decisions.
I'm tired of God being a last resort.
I was never told about religion, it was never spoken of when I was growing up. God came into my life a few years ago, my testimony explains the story.
Now, very much isolated, I find myself staring at the sky a lot, and then noticing people staring at me like I'm out of my mind, which I am.
I'm so amazed by all the things God's given us, like how we breathe when we aren't thinking about it. How my fingers and brain work together to type this.
The ability to be human is so unappreciated.
I'm constantly caught off guard by something where I can only tilt my head and stare, and wonder.
Once I go back in to the reality around me, I realize no one sees that there is a giant cloud that looks JUST LIKE a delicious cupcake because they're circling the police tape, to get a glimpse of death.
My mom tells me I'm different. I used to think it was a good thing.
but I can't find a job.
I can't do anything most people see as a piece of cake, like putting mail in the mailbox or asking someone for directions, without completely panicking.
I don't think I am a good person, I know I am. and I accept my brain is not wired correctly, so why are there so many more people who can make up their minds faster, and do things correctly, who choose not to?
All around me are people with no shame.
Pregnant Teens.
Drug addicts.
Sadists.
Hopeless.
Homeless.
Prostitutes.
Desperation.
and in all this, I see them begging and crying for God to help them when they've hit rock bottom because of their poor decisions.
I'm tired of God being a last resort.
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