First visit to a psychologist

[nyokiasheree]

Yesterday I had my first visit with a psychologist and it went okay. I have been trying hard to be strong and not to cry because that is how I usually deal with things when I am hurting - to hide in a shell. However, as soon as I started talking, the flood gates opened and the tears came. It was good to talk to a total stanger and to be able to just be......

I realized last week that I have been hiding away from dealing with Karl's passing. I do not live at our home, I do not look at pictures and I do not visit places where we use to spend alot of our time. However, I realise that I can't do that, because then I will not be grieving properly. Most of the time since his death I have been numb and in a state of unbelief. I know he is not physically where I am, but I have been looking at it as though he is in another country. I know he is in Heaven and I will never see him again on this side of eternity, but it helps not to think of him in the ground, but enjoying the wonders that God has prepared for those who love him.

I am very thankful that as Christian we have a hope, that death is not the final outcome of this world. Jesus himself laid down his life for us and broke the chain of sin and death. What a wonderful hope that we have as his children.......Hallelujah!!!!!

 

[JeanR]

I'm glad to hear you saw a therapist. I started the week after Terry died and I am still going, every two weeks faithfully. My therapist has guided me and given me wonderful, practical advice. I found things easier to deal with if I could understand what was happening and why.

I was having trouble the last few weeks and felt like I had crashed. My counselor told me to take a step back and look at things: I cleaned out Terry's closet, put the house up for sale, I may be losing my job, my daughter is being difficult, I have skunks that got into the basement at the old house, I have to fly and I hate flying, and it was my wedding anniversary. Wow, when he put it that way I understand why I felt so helpless and overwhelmed.

I'm feeling better now and feeling stronger. You will, too. Take one day at a time and hang onto the Lord.

 

[dellinw]

Nykoia, it sounds like you are taking the frst of many steps to healing. I am so glad you did. It is almost 9 mo for me and I have a long way to go yet, but we will get there. I tryto look at just the "day" and not "years" ahead. With God's help, you are strong. You can do this... We will all be praying for you. God Bless
Helen