nuunuu said:
One day i looked back on my life and i got worried. I have tried over 7 drugs, had premarital sex, i smoke and i drink, i roleplay, i'm hooked on bodymodifications (like pirecings and tattoos), I'm bisexual...
(and no i am not trolling)
I can't even remember how many laws i have violated; i have stolen, vandalised ect.
But the most worrying thing is i like the way i am. Still, everybody says that i am lost. Please tell me what i should do and whats wrong with me.
I'm only 18
Hey nuunuu....
Can you feel the hole in your life?
You know...the one that you keep trying to fill...with sex, drugs, piercing, breaking the law, etc....
Yeah...we've all had that hole.
We all try to put different things into that hole...to fill it up. The hole made us feel like we were somewhat empty and needed to stuff something into it.
We were created ...with that hole.
Because of the original sin in the Garden (Adam and Eve sinning)...we inherited the hole when we were born.
And...the one who created us has provided the perfect thing for us to put into that hole.
It's God, himself.
We need him.
Whether we realize it or not....we need God.
We can spend our entire life....stuffing that hole, but it will only be a very temporary fix...and most all of the time the fixes are dangerous to us.
No matter....nothing works, except for the perfect hole patcher...God.
When we sin: an ugly thought or murder...and everything in between....
We have separated ourselves from God.
God says that because we sin, we will die.
To die: To go to hell when we leave this earth.
But, our loving God....loves us to much to see us go to Hell. He will provide a way for us to be with Him in Heaven.
He will punish the sin.
He will send His son Jesus.
Jesus is perfect and will not sin.
However, he will be killed on the cross, as He takes the punishment for the sin that nuunuu has done.
Will nuunuu accept what Jesus has done on the cross for him? Does nuunuu see that Jesus has died for him/her? The punishment has been placed on Jesus.
So, nuunuu...... our loving God gives you a choice.
You can continue and experience a painful life here on earth and then continue on to eternal life in Hell. Or, you can look at your sin, bring it to God, and then ask God to forgive you for the sin. Tell Him you are sorry.
God is in the business of forgiving sins. He is pleased to do it, but you have to go to him. Right here, right now....in your house. Drop to your knees and call out to him. No fancy words needed. He will see what you are wanting in your heart. He will respond.
There are many folks here who care about you, nuunuu. We have all been where you are. Broken. Confused. Hurting. Wanting something different.
There is a way out. The answer is Jesus.
God freely gives the choice to nuunuu.
You are still young nuunuu.
I was about 26 years old before I realized that my hole stuffing was not working.
Be Blessed, my friend. I will pray for you.