Sorry to be a bother yet again....
I feel so abandoned by God.
For a while it seemed like our prayers were answered (we had enough money to make it through the month, things were going well, my husband made it back to the States safely from Afghanistan and is getting the medical treatment he needs.)
Now I feel (I know it's wrong...) that God hates me.
My husband is basically homeless....
[Read "Homeless Veteran (Active duty) help?" in Military forum.]
When he deployed I returned to my home town/state to be closer to family to get support (I have a disability and need help, my oldest son is also special needs.) I signed an apartment lease for 1 year (March 2011 to March 2012) for the duration of his deployment.
Now that he's returned early from his deployment due to medical issues and is back at his base (for 8 months until he's out of the military completely), they won't let him stay in the barracks because he is married.
We can't afford to pay for our apartment here and an apartment over there for him.
If he divorces me he can have barracks (and still get BAH [money for housing] for my apartment here). (That was a suggestion from the Housing office.)
We can also get on-post housing there in 1-3 months (but he doesn't have a place to live NOW, and we can't afford to move all of our stuff 400 miles [we used our tax return money last when we moved last time...], and I don't think I can break the lease, plus my son has surgeries coming up in the next few months that we've been waiting for for almost 2 years, plus it would mean transferring to a new school [he's special ed, so there'll be a lot of paperwork] for a few months [Aug-Mar] and then transferring him back when my husband gets out of the military, then finding a place to live all over again in March.)
Our account is negative by almost a thousand.
(My husband needed food, military stuff, a vehicle to get to/from "work" and doctors appointments; we're basically two "households" sharing a 'one household' income.)
I might not have enough for rent for our apartment, I'm running out of food and diapers for my kids, and I don't even have enough gas in my car to make it to church and back.
I just feel so hopeless.
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Please pray that either my husband gets to stay in one of the many empty barracks on post, or that he finds someone to stay with, or that we get on-post housing quickly and that the move goes smoothly.
Please pray that we have enough money to pay bills, feed the kids (and ourselves), get diapers and wipes [or that both of my sons will be fully potty-trained asap...], and have enough for gas to get to/from work/church/school/etc.
Please pray that I feel God's love again and that I stop feeling so hopeless/mad/sad/resentful/depressed/negative.
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Sorry this was so long.
Thank you, and God bless.
I feel so abandoned by God.
For a while it seemed like our prayers were answered (we had enough money to make it through the month, things were going well, my husband made it back to the States safely from Afghanistan and is getting the medical treatment he needs.)
Now I feel (I know it's wrong...) that God hates me.
My husband is basically homeless....
[Read "Homeless Veteran (Active duty) help?" in Military forum.]
When he deployed I returned to my home town/state to be closer to family to get support (I have a disability and need help, my oldest son is also special needs.) I signed an apartment lease for 1 year (March 2011 to March 2012) for the duration of his deployment.
Now that he's returned early from his deployment due to medical issues and is back at his base (for 8 months until he's out of the military completely), they won't let him stay in the barracks because he is married.
We can't afford to pay for our apartment here and an apartment over there for him.
If he divorces me he can have barracks (and still get BAH [money for housing] for my apartment here). (That was a suggestion from the Housing office.)
We can also get on-post housing there in 1-3 months (but he doesn't have a place to live NOW, and we can't afford to move all of our stuff 400 miles [we used our tax return money last when we moved last time...], and I don't think I can break the lease, plus my son has surgeries coming up in the next few months that we've been waiting for for almost 2 years, plus it would mean transferring to a new school [he's special ed, so there'll be a lot of paperwork] for a few months [Aug-Mar] and then transferring him back when my husband gets out of the military, then finding a place to live all over again in March.)
Our account is negative by almost a thousand.
(My husband needed food, military stuff, a vehicle to get to/from "work" and doctors appointments; we're basically two "households" sharing a 'one household' income.)
I might not have enough for rent for our apartment, I'm running out of food and diapers for my kids, and I don't even have enough gas in my car to make it to church and back.
I just feel so hopeless.
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Please pray that either my husband gets to stay in one of the many empty barracks on post, or that he finds someone to stay with, or that we get on-post housing quickly and that the move goes smoothly.
Please pray that we have enough money to pay bills, feed the kids (and ourselves), get diapers and wipes [or that both of my sons will be fully potty-trained asap...], and have enough for gas to get to/from work/church/school/etc.
Please pray that I feel God's love again and that I stop feeling so hopeless/mad/sad/resentful/depressed/negative.
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Sorry this was so long.
Thank you, and God bless.