Feelings of Doubt

[iac]

Well, ever since I got saved I've been having doubts of my salvation. They are becoming fewer and farther apart, but I would like to be rid of them all.




I suppose I must start at the beginning.

Before I got saved I was living a double life and when I was around my parents I would act as though I was just a good kid but when I got around my friends I seemed to turn into a demon. This all changed on Labor Day weekend 2001 when I went to my grandpa's house. I have always been taught about the rapture and God's righteous wrath afterwards; I always feared it but shrugged it off when I heard of it. So sometime after midnight everyone was asleep but me. I was thinking about a strange movie that I'd just watched and while I was lying on the couch thinking I had the most terrifying feeling that I had just been left behind. I never experienced greater fear and hopelessness than that night. I went down to my moms room and I listened outside her door to see if I could hear her snore. I did. I then decided to get my life straight with God so I went back to the couch and asked Him to come into my life. I handed my life over to Him and I felt great joy. But the joy didn't last very long. I began to hear strange voices in my head. It seemed as though they were fighting. I then had the feeling of being left behind come back to me. All night long I would check to see if my mom was still there. That was the longest and most terrifying night of my life. After that night was over I had a hole in my stomach. My muscles were so tense and my stomach felt anxious every minute of the day. I even thought I was demon possessed. My mom assured me that I wasn't. Thinking of it that night now brings tears to my eyes. After that night I said the prayer of salvation probably fifty times a day! I was never sure of my salvation. I would ask God into my life and then a minute or two later I would do it again. This was an on going pattern for the next year and a half. I've been able to get through months without asking God into my life. That's a great break through for me but unfortunately it doesn't stop.

Will I ever get over this? Am I useless to God if I have this doubt?me. Help me.

 

[seangoh]

Hi iac, just read your post and here's a text for you. No intention to condemn you but to allow you to see a balanced perspectives of things.

O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt? Matt. 14:31.

God knows our situation. Do you think He's happy when He sees us in such a state of self-doubt? We should reflect on the Creator and how He has guided us through the way. We should focus on His fairness and how much He loves us. Once we bring our energies away from ourselves and place it on the true God, then only can you break free and find happiness.

And regarding the left behind concept, i suggest you start to search the scriptures and find out what it really says about that.

 

[looksgood]

Indeed...it is a matter of trust in God.
The night God spoke to me I prayed and cried out to God all night long. In the morning I continued because I didn't "feel" saved. But I turned on the tv and seen a tv preacher. He said a few words that helped my faith.

"Did you pray it? Did you mean it? Then it is done!"

By faith we can KNOW we have salvation. Why? Because God said we do. If we doubt it, then we are not living in faith. Read Gods word. Settle it in you that it is true. I went through a trial about 1 year ago that brought these same fears to me. I had lost all my will to pray, read, or anything. I just didn't "feel" God. But when I came out my faith is now stronger. Because I believed His word. I believed His word more than my feelings.

 

[iac]

And another big thing is that I still sin a lot. I know nobody is perfect once they get saved but there's just a few sins that seem to keep coming back. I'm sorry for them but I know it says in the Bible that you should sin less and less and less once you get saved.

 

[Pseud]

Hi IAC, blessings

Base your relationship on the Lord with love, not on fear (or anything else for that matter). Jesus died for you, as a gift, so you could be with God. That's how much you are loved, friend.

If you base your relationship with Him on fear it stands more chance to fail. If you base it on love, then the fear will leave, the faith will grow, as will the trust. Love never fails.

Love the Lord and show Him you love him by reading the bible, praying regularly, and cutting sin out of your life.

Good luck and God bless.

In Christ,
Pseud

 

[iac]

Thanks all.

Pseud, I do have times of the day that I set to read the Bible and pray, but sometimes I miss it and that will feed my doubt.

Thanks all for your time and help.

 

[pmarquette]

Iac wrote : And another big thing is that I still sin a lot.
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look up Proverbs 24.16 ... get back up one more time than you fall
look up Psalm 118.5 kjv / 119.5 nab --- I asked for help , He heard and answered me
look up James 4.7 & 1 John 5.14,18 resist devil , speak truth , devil will flee

do what Jesus did when the devil was in his face " My daddy says ... It is written "
..... little girl said , when the devil comes and knocks on your heart , let Jesus answer it ...