Feeling upset

Tenken07 said:

Guys, Im also getting the strong feeling like God kinda.... keeping me here to go through this..... not cuz hes a <staff edit> or anything. Although part of me is angry for that.

Anyway, Im reading things and they just kind of.... jump out at me so to speak. Specifically things about God allowing crap like this to happen to good people to make them better people.

I mean, think about it. There is enough evidence to clearly Identify these visions as demons. However, even though they are tormenting me, they cannot actually possess me. They really only seem to be able to go so far with me.

Also, everytime I get totally worn out, Something ALWAYS happens to bring me back up, and afterwards, feel stronger than before.

Medication and the doctors have done nothing but harm, yet before I started taking medication, I noticed a total change in the way my life was going right after I turned to God.

In stead of going completely downhill, I started going up, then down, then up a bit higher than before, then down, then back up a little higher than before, then back down, and it repeats.

However, im finding myself to be in the up part alot more lately.


I dunno. I could even compare my life to obediance to the Law. Everytime I come back up and get a little higher each time, I have an easier time with obeying the Law, and feel less burdened by it. And I mean, my thoughts and judgements just seem to line up with scripture lately, wont have the scripture in mind so its not like im just regurgitating it. I just find that the decisions I make, I make for whatever reason, then later ill see a scripture verse, and it just confirms my decision.

So... by that standard... maybe im not doing anything wrong.

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Tenken07 said:

The zyprexa never gave me an insomniatic effect, actually it always put me to sleep after about an hour.

I used to be on 20MG for a while, but since the doctor no longer thinks its doing anything... or much of anything, shes reduced me to 5MG.

Ive been on... Risperidone, Seroqueil... actually you know what. I cant remember them all. Ive been on several though.

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Inkabink said:

Have you ever been tested for schizophrenia? Have you been to like, a real, serious, professional psychiatrist? I don't just mean some GED-educated counselor around the corner.

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Jerimi said:

Taoism is NOT a religion. it is a philosophy which does not conflict with Christianity. As a matter of fact, they support each others ideologies.

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Jerimi said:

It is a form of meditation with the single purpose of completely clearing your mind.

There is a specific position which you sit in that is designed to allow your body to relax and support itself. There is a way you hold your tongue to prevent saliva from going down your throat and there is a way of breathing which relaxes you. When done sorrectly, you are able to slip into a truly deep meditative state. If you want to PM me, I can explain it all in detail. It is a way to face things on your own terms and heal your mind as well as your spirit.

Taoism is NOT a religion. it is a philosophy which does not conflict with Christianity. As a matter of fact, they support each others ideologies.

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Inkabink said:

I also want to add that your attitude about everything is so positive and upbeat, Tenken. Even when you're talking about how much you suffer, you don't whine and moan and gripe. You just state it all matter-of-factly, and you're always pleasant and polite.

You rock, dude.

I'll try to remember to pray for you on a regular basis, too.

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