Yesterday and today, feeling really low. Sometimes christmas irritates me, because I'm surrounded by all these family gatherings, and u feel at christmas, if ur not that happy, and have things going on, u have to wear a plastic smile for a few days (u look happy to please other people) despite if ur feeling totally different inside...
I know I'm going to get the usual 'how are you' 'what r u doing with ur life' questions, and sometimes, u just think do u really care?! lol.
I dunno, I'm just complaining, not sure why I'm down. I just am, and knowing I have to pretend to be happy, and will be so busy caught up in social gatherings, I have little time to myself to let out how I really feel is frustrating. Anyone else get that??
Also...I have been worrying, and getting anxious about what people think of me and stuff (anyone else get that??) - it kinda makes me feel low.
I posted a thread about being anxious and paranoid, but kinda got the impression few people really understood at the time...hate feeling so alone, does anyone else get down easily about how others treat them - whether people really care etc??
Sorry just having a bad day...
I know I'm going to get the usual 'how are you' 'what r u doing with ur life' questions, and sometimes, u just think do u really care?! lol.
I dunno, I'm just complaining, not sure why I'm down. I just am, and knowing I have to pretend to be happy, and will be so busy caught up in social gatherings, I have little time to myself to let out how I really feel is frustrating. Anyone else get that??
Also...I have been worrying, and getting anxious about what people think of me and stuff (anyone else get that??) - it kinda makes me feel low.
I posted a thread about being anxious and paranoid, but kinda got the impression few people really understood at the time...hate feeling so alone, does anyone else get down easily about how others treat them - whether people really care etc??
Sorry just having a bad day...
! You know I couldn't put my finger on why I felt the way I did today but reading what you wrote hit it smack on the nail for me. We did the meeting of the clan (as I like to call it). It was very much "lets not talk about the fact that LP is off work with stress and is on anti-depressants", a lot of small talk, and yet all I wanted to do was to stay at home. I lacked the words to describe how I felt until I saw what you wrote. So you're not alone sis, I've had a similar day today.
but lets pray for a better day tomorrow.