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Hi Everyone.
After like 9 years I re-established contact with my brother. I mentioned this in a previous post in this section. I thought things were going to get better between my brother and I. We met and talked face to face in April. Since then we have had a few conversations that didnt go completely great but they went ok.
I hadnt talked to my brother in a few months. We've had some phone tag but thats about it. I recently found out that my mother has luekemia through my cousin whos mother is a match for bone marrow. Well I was wondering why my brother didnt call me to tell me. Well I've been trying to find out for the last 2 weeks.
I finally got in touch with my brother to ask him. He told me he didnt feel the need to call me because of how I've treated the family for all these years. I was like how I treated you guys. I avoided you guys because of the abuse i received by mom and dad. Well my brother laughed at me. He doesnt believe that my parents abused me. In fact he said He didnt feel like calling me also because of the way I treated my mother especialy. He accused me of abusing my mother which is totally a lie. My mother had a history of being physical with me. I defended myself against her. I would get physical because thats how I protected myself. My mother used to sufficate me. Well my brother said how can mom abuse you look at the size of mom and look at the size of you rich. I'm like what? I wasnt this size when i was 8. Anyway he asked me what did my mother did to me I told him about the suffication and he laughed i didnt get to tell him about the french kissing games that my mother did to me. All he could do is laugh and said I needed help mental help he said I should go admit myself. Then he threatened my life. he said if he had the opportunity he would kill me to get back at me.
He also said he was more mature than I was. I'm like yeah right your 31 and living with your parents and you have a job..I said get out of mommy's basement get a wife and kids then tell me about maturity. Anyway I was in bad shape after that phone conversation. I still am.
I feel very lonely. I dont consider myself to have parents anymore or a brother. My life is lame. No friends offline. When I go out I look to see if my brothers truck is around or my parents truck because I have this fear for my life..I need a new family I know this isnt possible. I just want a loving caring supportive, uncouraging family but thats not what I have...
In Christ
After like 9 years I re-established contact with my brother. I mentioned this in a previous post in this section. I thought things were going to get better between my brother and I. We met and talked face to face in April. Since then we have had a few conversations that didnt go completely great but they went ok.
I hadnt talked to my brother in a few months. We've had some phone tag but thats about it. I recently found out that my mother has luekemia through my cousin whos mother is a match for bone marrow. Well I was wondering why my brother didnt call me to tell me. Well I've been trying to find out for the last 2 weeks.
I finally got in touch with my brother to ask him. He told me he didnt feel the need to call me because of how I've treated the family for all these years. I was like how I treated you guys. I avoided you guys because of the abuse i received by mom and dad. Well my brother laughed at me. He doesnt believe that my parents abused me. In fact he said He didnt feel like calling me also because of the way I treated my mother especialy. He accused me of abusing my mother which is totally a lie. My mother had a history of being physical with me. I defended myself against her. I would get physical because thats how I protected myself. My mother used to sufficate me. Well my brother said how can mom abuse you look at the size of mom and look at the size of you rich. I'm like what? I wasnt this size when i was 8. Anyway he asked me what did my mother did to me I told him about the suffication and he laughed i didnt get to tell him about the french kissing games that my mother did to me. All he could do is laugh and said I needed help mental help he said I should go admit myself. Then he threatened my life. he said if he had the opportunity he would kill me to get back at me.
He also said he was more mature than I was. I'm like yeah right your 31 and living with your parents and you have a job..I said get out of mommy's basement get a wife and kids then tell me about maturity. Anyway I was in bad shape after that phone conversation. I still am.
I feel very lonely. I dont consider myself to have parents anymore or a brother. My life is lame. No friends offline. When I go out I look to see if my brothers truck is around or my parents truck because I have this fear for my life..I need a new family I know this isnt possible. I just want a loving caring supportive, uncouraging family but thats not what I have...
In Christ
