Feeling like Job, the bad of it.

[nosolostsoul]

For quite a few years now, I have been feeling like God has a target on me to ruining everything that is my life.

He has taken loved ones, family and friends from me. Even a child.
He has caused me physical illness and spiritual heartache.
He has lied outright to me, causing me to mistrust him.

When I ask him why he says nothing. If I try and pick up the pieces to keep moving forward, he destroys every effort.

Now I have had many say this is all the Devil's work, but my reply to that is Why when I am asking God to help, he does nothing but allow the Devil to destroy me?

If I am crying out to God, why is he ignoring me? Why has he forsaken me?

People tend to refer to the story of Job and how he comes out in the end, but I wasn't like Job in the beginning. Meaning yes I had a relationship with God but not anything compared to Job's. My life was never easy and yes I can contribute many things to be God's blessings.

However what has changed for me and what is different from Job is the fact that God lied by not keeping direct promises he has made me. So it's not like Job's situation where he knew where God stood, because if I had to say where God stands it's against me and by my enemies. Right next to the wicked.

I can't trust a God who does the exact opposite of what he has promised.

 

[brinny]

Praying for you (((hug)))

 

[archer75]

I am very sorry for all the trouble you have had recently.

What were the direct promises you mention?

 

[Pappy&Me]

Thoughts and prayers said and done.

 

[Bluerose31]

For quite a few years now, I have been feeling like God has a target on me to ruining everything that is my life.

He has taken loved ones, family and friends from me. Even a child.
He has caused me physical illness and spiritual heartache.
He has lied outright to me, causing me to mistrust him.

When I ask him why he says nothing. If I try and pick up the pieces to keep moving forward, he destroys every effort.

Now I have had many say this is all the Devil's work, but my reply to that is Why when I am asking God to help, he does nothing but allow the Devil to destroy me?

If I am crying out to God, why is he ignoring me? Why has he forsaken me?

People tend to refer to the story of Job and how he comes out in the end, but I wasn't like Job in the beginning. Meaning yes I had a relationship with God but not anything compared to Job's. My life was never easy and yes I can contribute many things to be God's blessings.

However what has changed for me and what is different from Job is the fact that God lied by not keeping direct promises he has made me. So it's not like Job's situation where he knew where God stood, because if I had to say where God stands it's against me and by my enemies. Right next to the wicked.

I can't trust a God who does the exact opposite of what he has promised.

I am sorry you have suffered so much. I was recently kidnapped for many months and raped. I wondered where God was. I understand now that God is not all powerful. He wants to protect us but he cant always. He loves you very much, I know for certain. He hates that you are suffering. Stay close to him, he wants to comfort you.

 

[nosolostsoul]

I am sorry you have suffered so much. I was recently kidnapped for many months and raped. I wondered where God was. I understand now that God is not all powerful. He wants to protect us but he cant always. He loves you very much, I know for certain. He hates that you are suffering. Stay close to him, he wants to comfort you.

I am sorry for your sufferings. Thank you for your words.

 

[nosolostsoul]

I am very sorry for all the trouble you have had recently.

What were the direct promises you mention?

First promises were my prayers asking for Peace, Justice and Vindication. For those who have wronged me to learn how and why they shouldn't wrong individuals. For him to teach them.

He then added more in depth to a situation I was dealing with. Quoting scripture, that the wicked would not prosper. That ill gotten gains would not prosper. That those who brought me trouble will reap double. That my case was valid and that he would deal accordingly. He said all I ask for was done and then some.

Yet nothing has come true. Not one bit of it. Not even the Peace i prayed for. The wicked have grown in numbers. Caused more drama and wickedness toward me and I am more destroyed now than I was when it all happened.

Not even so much because of the individuals. They were wrong but I will live.
However I have been destroyed spiritually and it seems now God doesn't want anything in my life to go right. No matter where I turn or try and heal. Those things get ruined.

So now I am left, Spiritually destroyed where I feel I can't trust God because he brought these words to me and has not fulfilled any parts of it.

I would just like Peace. To no longer suffer separation from God. To not feel abandoned and left clueless as to what I should do.
I'm literally just tired of everything.

I can't do anything for myself because he won't allow me to, and when I depend on him nothing happens but the opposite of what he said.

They prosper, they live on blessed and happy. Yet I am tormented and defeated daily.

 

[nosolostsoul]

Sorry for not properly quoting replies. Still getting use to this forum.

 

[1watchman]

Dear one, please do not EVER accuse God of lying or thinking evil against you, for to those who receive Him in true faith He is love and blessing. He never makes a mistake. Those who stand at a distance and criticize God for not doing as we demand, are not going to find the blessing they need. We must all come on the ground that we are all born in sin by the fall of man as in Genesis 2. We must come on the ground of necessary redemption ---not our ideas.

We all face a lost eternity under judgment in our natural state, but when we are humbled before God and come to Him on the terms He has offered we will be eternally saved, blessed, and full of joy in our life now and forever. Please read John 1; John 3; John 14, and seek to know what God has done and is doing for us. Our own ideas will profit nothing. Look up always, for God cares always!

 

[1watchman]

Duplication.

 

[brinny]

Praying for you (((hug)))