Yeah so the last couple of days have opened up a hell hole out of nowhere. Now I don't know If I am still saved or not. And someone telling me that I am saved does not make me saved. I need to hear it from God and God alone. Can't He just come out tell me I haven't committed the unpardonable sin? Right now I am having anger issues. Something I usually don't struggle with, but now I can not control it. Losing complete self control it seems. I'm snapping at people and wanting to withdraw. Even having suicide ideation, which is something I never had before. Is this a result of me losing God? Won't He come and fix my confusion. I feel like I've slipped into a hellish hole and don't know what to do guys.