Feel lost :(

[momofone]

The other day I found out my husband was cheating on me again. He doesn't want a divorce, but I can't trust him right now, and so I asked him for a separation. He agreed and moved in with his brother for the time being. I'm taking things one day at a time, and trusting that the Lord will guide me; He has provided for me thus far.

But right now I feel so lost. I thought things were going so well between us, he was more attentive, and we were in counseling. Finding out that he was cheating again (he says this was a one time slip, but I'm not sure) has been a shock for me.

I'm not sure how to handle this separation. Financially I'll be okay. I started my own home business shortly after he first admitted to infidelity. I had begun working on myself, and my self-esteem issues, and started the business so that I could feel that I was productive, and to help take financial strain off of my husband. Within just a short period of time, I was making a full-time income. So that's one way the Lord has provided for me.

But emotionally, I'm a wreck. I didn't work at all today, which is okay, I didn't have any files due today. But I'm not sure how to keep going. I spent most of the day in bed, only getting up on occasion. I just feel so lost right now.

 

[dayknee]

oh my sister...I cry with you..I am separated..its been almost 3 months..I know the pain and the hurt you are going through..I am doing alot better now..meaning I have more good days than bad..but in the begining it was just getting through the next hour..and thats how I took it..hour by hour..
I know in my situation there will very likely be divorce..and I would never tell you you should do that..your situation is unique as many others..Remember God hears and see's every tear you cry and he holds them in his hand..He will see you through this..you just have to lean on his word..he is faithfull and you will never be alone..
Lord be with Mom father right now and give her the strength she needs to just get through the next hour, the next day..touch her heart Lord and let her know you are with her in this all the way..give her peace, give her love..God just keep her close and comfort her..

Bless you

 

[FLANDIDLYANDERS]

It's hard and horrible and hurting. Sorry girl. Things will get a lot worse and a lot better, all at once some days.

You are not alone.

 

[eatenbylocusts]

Are you still in counseling? Perhaps you should also go by yourself. Is he cheating with the same woman? I think it's good you're taking things one day at a time and hopefully you can make a rational decision not based on anger.

I feel skeptical that your h will be worthy of your trust. How could this happen again? A good counselor should've set up guidelines that if followed would not allow this to happen. Of course, there's the following part, but obviously your h is putting himself in a situation where this could happen.

 

[momofone]

Are you still in counseling? Perhaps you should also go by yourself. Is he cheating with the same woman? I think it's good you're taking things one day at a time and hopefully you can make a rational decision not based on anger.

I feel skeptical that your h will be worthy of your trust. How could this happen again? A good counselor should've set up guidelines that if followed would not allow this to happen. Of course, there's the following part, but obviously your h is putting himself in a situation where this could happen.

I am in counseling. My counselor is a wonderful Christian woman who went through issues of infidelity with her husband and overcame them. My husband has been counseled by her husband.

Yes, it is the same woman. One of the guidelines that our counselors set up was that he was to have NO contact with the woman that he was having an affair with. So obviously he wasn't following that guideline.

I'm actually doing better today. I saw him at church, which was awkward and difficult, but then I talked to my counselor and she agreed that a separation is best right now. We prayed together and I've got a bit more peace about my decision now.