Feel like drinking pretty bad Its horrible

nate_1989 · Feb 19, 2010

Well havent posted in a while, but last saturday I got drunk and woke up crying out to god as usual, now its the weekend again and I feel like drinking, Its almost like I dont want my urge to go away. Weird but thats how I feel, then when I do drink I feel horrible. Also Im turning 21 on Tuesday, boy this is gonna be tough. I just feel really lonely right now, Its just me in a big ole college campus by myself in the lobby on my laptop, people keep walking by me with their big groups of friends and girlfriends, but not me I have neither, my usual friend is the alcohol. Well just thought Id vent. God bless and may he continue to fight this battle for me!

canukian · Feb 19, 2010

i went to aa and havent drank in 16 years. there has to be an aa on campus there . well you are the sort of person who god loves extra.... go to aa on the weekend and tell it to some flesh and blood....computer fellowship sux. then go to aa on your birthday! you have a very bright future!!!

BobW188 · Feb 20, 2010

Have you followed up on any of the advice you got when you posted here last November?

Whether it's on campus or off, get to an AA meeting. There's bound to be a contact number in your local phone book and, more likely than not, a classified ad in the local paper. Your campus or nearby community health center can help. So can a supportive church and community activities.

You're not going to beat this sitting in the lobby feeling sorry for yourself. God will help you; but you have to act!

Take a few minutes and read through some of the threads here on Alcohol Abuse. There's a lot of us with a lot of stories and we, also, can give you some help and ideas. Some of us, like canukian, have extended periods of sobriety. Others are still struggling. All of us have been where you are now, just as the men and women you'll meet in AA; but we won't force ourselves on you. I'm afraid you have to reach out!

An AA meeting is a good place to be on Saturday. And on your 21st birthday. If you want an intro, go to www.aa.org

madison1101 · Feb 21, 2010

Yes, drinking sucks and loneliness sucks and the more you drink, the lonelier you will feel. I know plenty of young people in AA who stopped drinking and started living at your age. Drinking is dying a slow painful death. Trust me, I relate to all you have posted.

You might not have friends now, but in AA you will find loads of people of all ages who are more than willing to help you stay sober, and get a life worth living.

Alcoholics Anonymous :.

God loves you more than you can imagine. Talk to people in AA, and find out how to start living.

Hugs,
Trish

RuthD · Feb 21, 2010

nate_1989 said:
Well havent posted in a while, but last saturday I got drunk and woke up crying out to god as usual, now its the weekend again and I feel like drinking, Its almost like I dont want my urge to go away. Weird but thats how I feel, then when I do drink I feel horrible. Also Im turning 21 on Tuesday, boy this is gonna be tough. I just feel really lonely right now, Its just me in a big ole college campus by myself in the lobby on my laptop, people keep walking by me with their big groups of friends and girlfriends, but not me I have neither, my usual friend is the alcohol. Well just thought Id vent. God bless and may he continue to fight this battle for me!

AA is very good and going to lots of meetings makes it easier for you to quit and stay quit One Day at a Time. Reaching out here and computer fellowship is a good thing, too! All the best to you!

madison1101 · Feb 21, 2010

I forgot to mention something else I learned in AA...how to cope with that feeling of wanting to drink. Guess what!!! It happens to almost every single alcoholic who tries to quit. It is a feeling and it does pass. In AA, I learned to deal with that feeling and to call friends and contacts in AA when that feeling is all consuming.

Online support is not in real time, and can only help to a point. In AA, you will meet real people who feel the same way you do, and understand, and can help you cope.

Hugs,
Trish

nate_1989 · Feb 22, 2010

thanks for all the helpful info guys, as an update I did not drink so thats good. Im 21 today however. I will look into this AA thing.

madison1101 · Feb 22, 2010

nate_1989 said:
thanks for all the helpful info guys, as an update I did not drink so thats good. Im 21 today however. I will look into this AA thing.

Happy Birthday. I do hope you check out AA, and learn how to live a happy, joyous, and free life without alcohol.

Hugs,
Trish

RuthD · Feb 23, 2010

nate_1989 said:
thanks for all the helpful info guys, as an update I did not drink so thats good. Im 21 today however. I will look into this AA thing.

Happy Birthday

devonian · Feb 24, 2010

nate_1989 said:
Its almost like I dont want my urge to go away. Weird but thats how I feel, then when I do drink I feel horrible.

Nate, that's not weird at all. I was afraid of admitting that I was an alcoholic for years because alcohol was the only way I knew how to deal with all the "stuff" in my life. If I admitted I was an alcoholic, I would have to quit. I would never be able to escape life... even if just for a while. Alcohol was my solution, an escape from my problems... until it no longer was a solution, it began to amplify my problems. I lived that way for years as my alcoholism progressed, until my problems began to pile up on themselves and my life became unmanageable.

That's when I found out that there was a solution. A way to deal with my problems that was better and lasted longer than alcohol. It allowed me to deal with difficult people. It helped me deal with my guilt. It helped me handle good times and bad times without even having an urge to drink. I didn't think about drinking and I didn't think about not drinking.

I found that solution by reading the book "Alcholics Anonymous". Please get a copy of the book and read it. It changed my life. It gave me a much better understanding of God and my need to turn my life over to him. I hope it can change yours also.

Autumnleaf · Apr 1, 2010

Go to AA and tell them you are new and need help. Then do what they tell you to if you really want to quit drinking.

RuthD · Apr 2, 2010

You also can observe a few meetings before and if you want to join. There are also other Recovery groups out there, too. Please don't be so hard on yourself it only makes you feel worse and the cycle will continue. Forgive yourself as Jesus has. If he has forgiven you you are totally forgiven. Take it easy on yourself. You are a wonderful creation of God and he is always with you. Getting to know God better really helps, too. There are also Rehab places for getting sober and there are Alcoholism Counselors, too. Best wishes to you!

Hupomone10 · Apr 5, 2010

Nate:
The type of meeting may be important too. The first time I went I ended up at a "Lead" meeting, where someone talks for 45 minutes, and I wasn't totally sober at the time. It seemed boring although since then I found out they're not. I recommend looking for a discussion meeting. There are meetings that have someone talk (lead meetings), 12-12 or Big Book meetings (where they discuss a chapter of one of those books), and there are discussion meetings (where they discuss a topic that comes up that night). Also at the discussion meeting there's more of a chance to voice the thing troubling you at the time.

A booklet can be obtained by looking up AA on the internet and contacting them, or you can just look up the local AA number and call them (I recommend this) and they can recommend a discussion meeting for your location, or several. They differ greatly in atmosphere and people there, so don't try one and give up if it doesn't fit.

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