Feel like cutting tonight

[DLX]

Well, I started cutting when I was 10 and continued on until I was 19. Then I stopped until I was 24 and had postpartum depression. Now I have been diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder and bipolar. I am 26 now and it has been a year or so since I cut last. The Dr started weaning me off of one of my meds two weeks ago because she thought I was doing so well that I may not need it. Now I am feeling horrible and I just can't get relief. I know that cutting would help so much - even if it is only temporary. The Dr gave me some medication to take if I was feeling like hurting myself. I have taken it...so I am just waiting I guess. I just want things to be back to normal again. It is so hard on my family. Anyway, I would appreciate your prayers and support.

Lexi

 

[Daysoni]

DoulaLexi, It's a hard thing trying to kick this behavior. One thing that works for me is to try and figure out did what happened to make me feel this way. Was it a situation, or a person. Or is it Satan having a strong pull on me. He's always there when were at our weakest that's what he thrives on. So just think although cutting is a relief do you want to give that power of hurting and scaring your body to Satan or to who or what caused your frame of mind? I always tell this to my friends that have cut. It might not work for you but get some ice cubes and hold them in your hands for as long as you posibaly can it will take your mind off of it. If you chat on msn I can send you a couple of christian songs that talk about this situation. Through God music has been my outlet and helped me heal. I will pray for you long and hard. And I'm sending you lot's of hugs.

 

[Daysoni]

DoulaLexi, I'm not sure if this will make it to as I live on the coast and there's a storm. Cutting is a hard thing to battle against. Try holding ice cubes in your hands for as long as you can. It helps me when I feel like cutting. It's been since Sept or October for me. Try to imagine that when you cut it's like giving power to Satan. He just waits for our weakest time in life and then he attacks. Remember to that God sent his Son to the Cross Jesus bled for us. Jus tbe sure to talk about your pain and be honest with God it's when were not that we become self destructive. Your in my prayers and thoughts. There are two songs that I can think of that talk about cutting. Zoegirl sings one and Superchick sings another. If you chat on msn I can send these songs to you that way. PM if it's ever to much to bare. But remember our Lord is sitting there right beside you. Blessings and Hugs

 

[Klowi280]

I found this forum through an exhaustive google search and hope you can help me. I am a teacher IN middle school and have been priviledged to have received a Katrina refugee into my classroom. He and my son have become extremely close as have he and i. He writes to me at school in his journal very private thoughts, and has shared with me a tremendous amount of pain and unbelieable junk in his short 14 years. Recently he mentioned to me that he used to try cutting. I really knew very little about it. He talked, had one slight scar that he was a little embarassed about, but that was the end of the story. Today, however, he came back to school after the weekend with 4-6 fairly prominent cuts in scabs on his wrists. [sidenote - he's been grounded by Mom for 4 months with no internet, phone, visits, etc. and feeling extremely isolated] He wrote in his journal that he's having trouble stopping but doesn't know who to talk to. We don't have a nurse or counsellor in our small Christian school. I don't want to betray his trust by going to administration or his mother - I tried that in other instances and not much happened. I would really appreicate someone - or EVERYONE - writing to me (please use my e-mail) to give me insight into how I can best help this delightful, brilliant, artistically genius young man deal with the many things in his life that are awful but over which he has little contol. PLEASE WRITE....THIS IS ALL NO NEW TO ME AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO HELP HIM BUT I KNOW HE'S REACHING OUT TO ME......