This has been a constant struggle for me for the past few months.
Ever since I've been saved I've felt called to fast, but only have committed to 1, 2, or 3 day fasts.
I just feel so much heavier and less spiritual when i eat large amounts of food.
The reason this is so conflicting is because my biggest passion in life ( other than god, jesus, family, and friends ), is Weightliftng.
Weightlifting requires a lot of calories to progress.
So i can't really fast and weightlift at the same time.
Sometimes I question is weightlifting is something god even wants me to do.
I doubt he values physical strength very much.
Jesus wasn't Jesus for his physical strength but for his spiritual strength, along with everything else.
That leads to me to think that If I want to truly follow Jesus I should prioritize a spiritual journey over a physical one.
At the same time I feel this is my only chance at being great at something and being remembered for something. I have pretty decent potential as a weightlifter and could take it pretty far if I gain enough weight, I just feel maybe it is gluttony to eat so much.
I'm really conflicted between the two. A spiritual journey vs A physical journey.
Part of me says "Just pursue weighlifting for the 2-3 years, reach your goals, and then pursue your spiritual journey and do fasting periods for the rest of your life". But at the same time I never know when I'll die and I feel If I were to die now I would be "dying in my sin" of Gluttony.
Whenever I get off track, I remember how serious this world we're living in is.
We are fighting a spiritual battle.
We are a vessel to be filled with God or Satan.
Sometimes I wonder how I can even consider a selfish ambition or passion to be more important than fasting for god, I mean if theres a chance I can go to heaven I should take it, even if that means giving everything else up including my passion.
So I'm looking for guidance.
A lot of people tell me to find a middle ground and "you're taking this Jesus thing too seriously" but I want to pursue it to the end, and part of me feels like being a big jacked weightlifter isn't very Jesus like.
Ever since I've been saved I've felt called to fast, but only have committed to 1, 2, or 3 day fasts.
I just feel so much heavier and less spiritual when i eat large amounts of food.
The reason this is so conflicting is because my biggest passion in life ( other than god, jesus, family, and friends ), is Weightliftng.
Weightlifting requires a lot of calories to progress.
So i can't really fast and weightlift at the same time.
Sometimes I question is weightlifting is something god even wants me to do.
I doubt he values physical strength very much.
Jesus wasn't Jesus for his physical strength but for his spiritual strength, along with everything else.
That leads to me to think that If I want to truly follow Jesus I should prioritize a spiritual journey over a physical one.
At the same time I feel this is my only chance at being great at something and being remembered for something. I have pretty decent potential as a weightlifter and could take it pretty far if I gain enough weight, I just feel maybe it is gluttony to eat so much.
I'm really conflicted between the two. A spiritual journey vs A physical journey.
Part of me says "Just pursue weighlifting for the 2-3 years, reach your goals, and then pursue your spiritual journey and do fasting periods for the rest of your life". But at the same time I never know when I'll die and I feel If I were to die now I would be "dying in my sin" of Gluttony.
Whenever I get off track, I remember how serious this world we're living in is.
We are fighting a spiritual battle.
We are a vessel to be filled with God or Satan.
Sometimes I wonder how I can even consider a selfish ambition or passion to be more important than fasting for god, I mean if theres a chance I can go to heaven I should take it, even if that means giving everything else up including my passion.
So I'm looking for guidance.
A lot of people tell me to find a middle ground and "you're taking this Jesus thing too seriously" but I want to pursue it to the end, and part of me feels like being a big jacked weightlifter isn't very Jesus like.