I might be jumping the gun but I saw my ultrasound report on my thyroid and I can see I will need a biopsy. I recently posted asking for prayers for my husband who is still struggling, and now this. I went into a deep depression yesterday feeling overwhelmed, then over the course of several hours of talking to God, thinking about Him and reading stuff on thyroid cancer and hearing a voice inside my head (not audible, just within myself) saying "You will be okay" over and over, I managed to pull myself out of the depression and felt stronger mentally. I also took valium which I had for my PTSD I suffer from. I am on lots of meds because of exposure to chemical toxins at Ft. McClellan back in 1969-70. The thyroid thing is a result of that exposure along with many other conditions and diseases I have. I woke up this morning feeling back to how I was when I found out about the medical report. Fear, sadness, etc. I just want to get back to the state of mind where the fear is gone. I am trying hard to trust God, I want to trust God. I don't know why I can't just be in that place where my trust for Him is so true and great that I lose my fear. I feel I am failing God. I am more concerned about that actually than having thyroid cancer. I would like prayers for my mental state and if you have an extra minute for my prognosis to turn out good. The feeling of letting God down haunts me more than anything. I do not know how to control my depression on this. 
Thanks brothers and sisters.
Thanks brothers and sisters.
