Extremely weird/taboo fetish. I need some insight.

[cwcwc]

Right now I'm dealing with the dissolution of a disturbing fetish. It involves a sexual fixation on religious objects, nuns, etc.

It's not something I want in my life. It's the result of years and years of pornography addiction. I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about. One thing leads to another and you're left wondering, "how in the world did I get to this point?"

I've asked for forgiveness and I'm trying to forget about this fetish (as well as pornography entirely). The fact that I actually bought into it is eating me up, though. As someone who has been a Christian since a child, I definitely should have known better. But, as we all know, pornography is nothing but one extreme to another. If you keep going along with it, it never ends. Well, it's going to end with me.

Will God actually forgive me for something this awful? I know that we're absolved of sins if we actively repent, but this one seems to tie right with the unpardonable sin.

 

[PerfectinProgress]

God's Mercy is sufficient! That's what so wonderful about Him! Yes, He forgives you. All sin deserves the same punishment:death. Thanks to the Jesus' sacrifice on the cross we are set free!
Believe me, I too have struggled with fetiahes so you aren't alone. Even though I haven't heard of that particular fetish, it CANNOT be as out there as balloons or giant women. The Lord is still bringing me out of the many fetiahes that I have been involved in, so never give up! If you need someone to talk to, I'm here.

 

[PerfectinProgress]

God will forgive you! Fetishism is a slippery slope, but no matter how hard you fall God will always be there to pick you up. I admire your confidence to admit that this is a stronghold in your life. This is the first step! If you want to talk, just PM me.

 

[PerfectinProgress]

Don't be ashamed! God has forgiven us of all our sins. Even this one! No matter how bad you think it is, God's mercy covers this. If you think you're going through this alone... you're not. I also struggle with Fetishism but God is seeing me through that. PM me if you have any questions.

 

[raven1]

Why do you say it's the unpardonable sin?

 

[Philothei]

If one repents everytime one sins and tries again and again while remaining in repentance how can God not take pity on our struggle? He sees your intention your struggle.... He awaits in your struggle and he cheers us along! He is sad with our failure and he rejoices with our success against the temptations we endure...He never seizes to do anything in His power (since we also have free choice) to bring us to salvation! It is His Grace that saves us not our own efforts for sure since he is the source of our salvation! Trust He will bring you to full healing! Do not listen to the temptation that He won't accept you back it is a lie! God always accepts the ones who fully repent and try to do His will!

As far as the sins that are "unforgiven" that refers to the blasphemy to the Holy Spirit that is when we deny God's presence in our lives and the lives of others like when we call someone a non-Christian or we judge others....then we ccommit that sin... nothing to do with what you are going through...

Keep it up and if you fall just get up again and keep going! No matter how many times you stumble and fall the Lord is there to give you a hand to raise you up!

 

[RuthD]

Yes, God understands and forgives as all before me have said. Sometimes we get lost in crazy things, I know I have, too. I'm praying for your healing.