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[GCNFan1999]

As I said in my previous thread I really wanted to die, because my idiot parents never took me to school or bothered to homeschool me. leaving me unable to solve basic things for almost many school subjects

I really wanna cry as I am writing this. i just want to be as smart as everyone, tbh and I feel like because I don't know basic let's just say science or biology questions, I'll never learn anything or succeed at all. I get stumped at everything and confused very easily sometimes when trying to learn for myself, I know I'm not doing it right probably.

My parents are gonna have to blow all their money on online schools or GEDs for me cause of that decision, they said. I really need help cause I don't know what to do at all, I feel like I can't learn anything and It makes me feel like that I'm not allowed to be friends with people who actually are smart.

I'm making this cause I felt like I haven't explained enough at all, and I don't know what to do. I feel insanely embarassed cause of them and I try to keep as much faith as possible.

i need to find something to study from while they "Work" on that. But everytime I do, I find myself rereading the same thing over and over again. I have hardly tried stuff like that cause I don't know where to start from, and it creates self hatred towards myself, cause it's too hard for me to understand anything.

Plus if I do learn how stuff works, I force myself to find out how the thing making it works also works. Then it just goes on and on. Mainly cause I think I have to. I also feel that there's too much for me to learn, thanks to them.

I want this all to end.

 

[JackRT]

As I said in my previous thread I really wanted to die, because my idiot parents never took me to school or bothered to homeschool me. leaving me unable to solve basic things for almost many school subjects

I really wanna cry as I am writing this. i just want to be as smart as everyone, tbh and I feel like because I don't know basic let's just say science or biology questions, I'll never learn anything or succeed at all. I get stumped at everything and confused very easily sometimes when trying to learn for myself, I know I'm not doing it right probably.

My parents are gonna have to blow all their money on online schools or GEDs for me cause of that decision, they said. I really need help cause I don't know what to do at all, I feel like I can't learn anything and It makes me feel like that I'm not allowed to be friends with people who actually are smart.

I'm making this cause I felt like I haven't explained enough at all, and I don't know what to do. I feel insanely embarassed cause of them and I try to keep as much faith as possible.

i need to find something to study from while they "Work" on that. But everytime I do, I find myself rereading the same thing over and over again. I have hardly tried stuff like that cause I don't know where to start from, and it creates self hatred towards myself, cause it's too hard for me to understand anything.

Plus if I do learn how stuff works, I force myself to find out how the thing making it works also works. Then it just goes on and on. Mainly cause I think I have to. I also feel that there's too much for me to learn, thanks to them.

I want this all to end.

As a retired teacher I can sympathize with your situation. but from what you have just said I think that you are an intelligent person. In my own school years I encountered teachers who were incompetent but I quickly discovered that I could also teach myself. You can too. There are many teaching resources online and quite likely some in your own community. Seek them out. You are an intelligent person and you can do this.

 

[Tolworth John]

My parents are gonna have to blow all their money on online schools or GEDs for

May I suggest a couple of things.
Please talk to a doctor about how you feel, depression does not solve its self.

You are clearly not stupid, your self assessment is biased due to depression.
Talk to your parents about how frustrated you are and see if they are prepared to pay for a tutor to assess your degree of education and to suggest ways of filling any gaps and bringing you up to the average education level for your age.
If they are reluctant to pay are there any retired teachers in your church who you could talk to for coaching?

 

[Tempura]

Don't worry, the average joe really doesn't know that much. You're clearly intelligent enough for many things, and the best thing is we never stop learning. We always learn and we can seek information. Most people continuously learn about the things that they actively seek out themselves, or about things they are forced to deal with. What we know and how we use that knowledge, it's so very personal and subjective. What I learned at school, I have already forgotten most of it! There are things you know better than me.

I'm certain you're not as out of it as you think. It's alright. The internet is full of "how X works" stuff. Plenty of information there. Libraries exist too. Whenever something comes along you don't understand, it's easy to check out some of the basics. And when you're interested in something, then absorbing the information gets easier because you're already involved in a whole another way. And you have what many don't; you clearly have the thirst to know more. That's a lot, a huge thing. So many don't have that.

Also, so many young people don't know what they want, want they should pursue, what they should know, even those who have been to school and even after some higher education. Do not think, for a second, that you're the only one who feels like they're clueless, like they don't have a direction. So many feel like that. So many. Also many have problems concentrating, even if they know what they want to know and do, and it can be harder to learn things because of that.

Try not to burden yourself with this. Remember, none of us are even near perfect, same goes for our knowledge. We can only know in part. We can accept it. We can and should accept our incompleteness. Knowledge will pass away, just like most things, but love never fails. Whenever we feel like we are all wrong, we can remember that we are but dust, and God's love prevails in the end.

1 Corinthians 13:

"Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears."

 

[Drifter91]

As I said in my previous thread I really wanted to die, because my idiot parents never took me to school or bothered to homeschool me. leaving me unable to solve basic things for almost many school subjects

I really wanna cry as I am writing this. i just want to be as smart as everyone, tbh and I feel like because I don't know basic let's just say science or biology questions, I'll never learn anything or succeed at all. I get stumped at everything and confused very easily sometimes when trying to learn for myself, I know I'm not doing it right probably.

My parents are gonna have to blow all their money on online schools or GEDs for me cause of that decision, they said. I really need help cause I don't know what to do at all, I feel like I can't learn anything and It makes me feel like that I'm not allowed to be friends with people who actually are smart.

I'm making this cause I felt like I haven't explained enough at all, and I don't know what to do. I feel insanely embarassed cause of them and I try to keep as much faith as possible.

i need to find something to study from while they "Work" on that. But everytime I do, I find myself rereading the same thing over and over again. I have hardly tried stuff like that cause I don't know where to start from, and it creates self hatred towards myself, cause it's too hard for me to understand anything.

Plus if I do learn how stuff works, I force myself to find out how the thing making it works also works. Then it just goes on and on. Mainly cause I think I have to. I also feel that there's too much for me to learn, thanks to them.

I want this all to end.

dude...try not to bound yourself to despair...if you need to search deep within inside yourself...then do so...have a comfort branch in who you are...
hear yourself say positive things for yourself...for calm is a good approval...
there is always hope...
giving up is misinterpreting is giving up in the ways of philosophy...
it is all in you...therefore...you're never a long way from things that you can build for yourself...
just try to be solidly strong...for example...you can test your patience in some things...to eventually found out you never knew you had a patience to find out you have a patience you never knew you had...
don't test your patience now of course in because in you're now in your stage.
heck have an imaginary friend to console yourself...it sounds embarrassing...but i do that constantly...
oh yeah, another thing...smile often...if you want...it can make somebody's day...

look, if you're looking for a mentor...i am more than happy to instruct you in many ways...message me if you'd like...

 

[Jeshu]

It is best to understand that the bad self image you have of yourself is your worst enemy. You can do many things to learn stuff but the biggest lesson i learned i that an by this world educated mind gets often at odds with its Creator.

Bring yourself in your despair and mental pain to God and give that life to Him and ask for His good life back in return. Keep doing that until you have trade all your bad life for his good life.

To love God and neighbour is worth while. If you study, focus on studying God's word, it has many words of eternal knowledge. True as true can be!

Honest trade Jesus with your low self image as Master and you will flourish under His leadership.

Peace.

An invitation to The Chosen.

God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.

God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!

In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!

His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!

Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'

To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.

For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.

Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.

Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.

The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!

Love