hello all sorry for bad english
something happend to me and i dont know what should i do now i dont have motivation to live anymore.
there was this girl that i liked allot since i was 15 (I will be 19 in august)
Between september and december of 2014 i was in big depresion becouse of acne and problems with speach i couldnt pronaunce some leathers right i still cant.
At that time i was seriously consider suicide but i was affraid to do it.
So i told to god: look god i dont whant to live here anymore becouse im ashamed of the way i talk and i will go to some cave and i will pray and do your will and all that. and i will not live on this place or like this anymore.
After that i told him god if you whant me to stay here please give me a reason in next 7 days Becouse i had scolarship and didnt whant my parents to return money if i go and i knew that my life will be over at this place and i could newer come back. --------------december 2014
And then as the week went by something hapend that same girl i liked posted something on facebook: God has a plan for you....
i didnt hoped to be her becouse i knew that i couldnt get her that i wasnt god enough for her but somewere in back of my mind i almost always tought abouth her
but when i saw i couldnt belive it i was so happy i newer felt that way before i didnt thaught that it wil be anithyng with that girl and there she was. and at this time worst depresion of my life stoped just like that
that hapend in december 2014 in january 16 2015 i stoped mastrubating for about 150 to 200 days and she was the only girl i tought about
but in june i started mastrubating again i dont know why probably becouse i still had problems with talking
in june 2015 i mastrubated about 2 times in week in september got alot worse i was about 7 times a week and since january 2016 its almost 2 or 3 times a day and i knew i should stop it and all but i DIDNT AND NOW SOMETHING HAPEND I DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO
ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGO THAT GIRL GOT BOYFRIEND AND I REALI HAWE NO IDEA WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW CAN SOMEONE PLEAS HELP ME I KNOW THAT THIS IS MY FAULT BUT I CANT IMAGINE HER WITH SOMEON ELSE THE REASON I DIDNT TALK TO HER OR DO ANY MOVE IS THAT IM REALY SHY AND I STIL CANT TALK RIGHT
WHAT SHOULD I DO ??????
DO YOU THINK THAT IM CRAZY BECOUSE I CAN SE IT NOW AND IT SEEMS LIKE CRAZY GUY WRITED THIS
DO YOU THINK THAT I SHOULD GET MENTAL HELP
something happend to me and i dont know what should i do now i dont have motivation to live anymore.
there was this girl that i liked allot since i was 15 (I will be 19 in august)
Between september and december of 2014 i was in big depresion becouse of acne and problems with speach i couldnt pronaunce some leathers right i still cant.
At that time i was seriously consider suicide but i was affraid to do it.
So i told to god: look god i dont whant to live here anymore becouse im ashamed of the way i talk and i will go to some cave and i will pray and do your will and all that. and i will not live on this place or like this anymore.
After that i told him god if you whant me to stay here please give me a reason in next 7 days Becouse i had scolarship and didnt whant my parents to return money if i go and i knew that my life will be over at this place and i could newer come back. --------------december 2014
And then as the week went by something hapend that same girl i liked posted something on facebook: God has a plan for you....
i didnt hoped to be her becouse i knew that i couldnt get her that i wasnt god enough for her but somewere in back of my mind i almost always tought abouth her
but when i saw i couldnt belive it i was so happy i newer felt that way before i didnt thaught that it wil be anithyng with that girl and there she was. and at this time worst depresion of my life stoped just like that
that hapend in december 2014 in january 16 2015 i stoped mastrubating for about 150 to 200 days and she was the only girl i tought about
but in june i started mastrubating again i dont know why probably becouse i still had problems with talking
in june 2015 i mastrubated about 2 times in week in september got alot worse i was about 7 times a week and since january 2016 its almost 2 or 3 times a day and i knew i should stop it and all but i DIDNT AND NOW SOMETHING HAPEND I DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO
ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGO THAT GIRL GOT BOYFRIEND AND I REALI HAWE NO IDEA WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW CAN SOMEONE PLEAS HELP ME I KNOW THAT THIS IS MY FAULT BUT I CANT IMAGINE HER WITH SOMEON ELSE THE REASON I DIDNT TALK TO HER OR DO ANY MOVE IS THAT IM REALY SHY AND I STIL CANT TALK RIGHT
WHAT SHOULD I DO ??????
DO YOU THINK THAT IM CRAZY BECOUSE I CAN SE IT NOW AND IT SEEMS LIKE CRAZY GUY WRITED THIS
DO YOU THINK THAT I SHOULD GET MENTAL HELP