Drug Abuser seeking help, prayer, and knowledge

[xcalibure]

Hi All,

I've been hooked on prescription pain pills for about two years now. I know I'm hooked because I no longer take them for pain but for the high that they give me. The drug I've used the longest has been Percocett, at about 10 pills a day of the 5/325mg strength. I've spoken with my doctor about my addiction and we tried cold turkey. My body couldn't handle that and I was out doctor shopping after only two days, going to dentists, the ER, wherever I could someone to write me a script. Next we tried a taper schedule that I arranged and thought for sure I could stick with. However it turns out I was kidding myself. I wasn't ready for that step and showed it by acting stupid and taking all of my prescribed doses well before the next refill date, i.e., a ten day supply at 6 pills a day was gone in five or less. And as the ten days progressed they fell shorter and shorter. I've come to my doctor with this also. He says I'm not stupid, I'm just a person who's body likes narcotics which is very true. My question for those former addicts or anyone familiar with addiction is what do I do now? I know cold turkey is not an option. I'll be out doctor shopping in no time. The difference now and when I went through the taper is that I realize now it's not a game nor am I "in love" with the drugs anymore. In other words I'm taking the necessary steps to help myself, i.e. N/A, my church, family, and anything else I can put around me that will be a positive influence where as before I was dishonest and only saying I was. At this point I know I want to quit, I don’t want this to be my life anymore. I don’t want to hurt my family anymore. I want this to end but I also want to be successful in beating it. Not clean for a week then getting high again. Are there any suggestions on where to go from here? Would I be able to do another taper with a stronger will and taking it seriously, not as a pass to free pills to binge on? I think I can, I know I was wrong and I feel the guilt of it everyday. I was dishonest to get pain pills while on a contract with my Dr to taper off of them. What should I do now? Any advice would be helpful.

Thanks,
X

 

[rocklife]

Its good you are being so honest and seeking help. you're in NA? how are you paying for all these doctor visits and pills?

You also admit your dishonesty, ask God to forgive and to change you, help you not lie. I used to be a big liar, my major addiction used to be marijuana, which I quit cold turkey after moving in with family I can't do illegal things with. We're all different, I dont' know any other things to tell you, doctors and therapists didn't help me, they just kept giving me more medication that didn't solve my main problem of just being an evil person (liar, thief, etc).

I haven't been able to fix and change myself but God answers my prayers to change me, seriously, I used to be scared of death (my husband threatened to kill me when I left him), God has taken away my fear of death. Whenever I feel I may gossip or etc, I ask Him to stop me, and He does. He has power if you seek Him in all your life areas. Tell Him to take control of that part of your life and do what you can to get yourself out (He says there is a way out of sin, ask Him for it).

am praying for you

 

[xcalibure]

Yes, I have been a bad liar through out this whole ordeal, and I have been praying as well. That's why I feel it's time to let this go but God can or will only do so much. I think you hav to be willing to help yourself an equal ammount.

As far as afording my habbit, that wasn't a problem due to good insurance, 5.00 co pays on all my scripts.

 

[rocklife]

You're right, you need to put forth the effort to stop lying.

One cure for me God put me through, was confessing my lies and wrongs to the people I lied and wronged personally, and paying restitution as needed. When you've told some people "I did this against you, I am sorry, please forgive me" and do all you can to right the wrong (paying back what you stole) it humiliates you enough to stop doing it more. It worked for me (I am still doing this in some cases with God's guidance and wisdom)

You say you've already told your doctor. Maybe you should write a letter to your insurance company and tell them you've defrauded them and give them the money back they spent on your drugs you used differently than they were intended. If you move to doing what is right, God will help you pay. And ask God to help you and be with you. Of course God may have your insurance taken away to help stop this also, and give it back to you when you are responsible enough. Humble yourself and He will exalt you in His time.

 

[Harlan Norris]

Hi All,

I've been hooked on prescription pain pills for about two years now. I know I'm hooked because I no longer take them for pain but for the high that they give me. The drug I've used the longest has been Percocett, at about 10 pills a day of the 5/325mg strength. I've spoken with my doctor about my addiction and we tried cold turkey. My body couldn't handle that and I was out doctor shopping after only two days, going to dentists, the ER, wherever I could someone to write me a script. Next we tried a taper schedule that I arranged and thought for sure I could stick with. However it turns out I was kidding myself. I wasn't ready for that step and showed it by acting stupid and taking all of my prescribed doses well before the next refill date, i.e., a ten day supply at 6 pills a day was gone in five or less. And as the ten days progressed they fell shorter and shorter. I've come to my doctor with this also. He says I'm not stupid, I'm just a person who's body likes narcotics which is very true. My question for those former addicts or anyone familiar with addiction is what do I do now? I know cold turkey is not an option. I'll be out doctor shopping in no time. The difference now and when I went through the taper is that I realize now it's not a game nor am I "in love" with the drugs anymore. In other words I'm taking the necessary steps to help myself, i.e. N/A, my church, family, and anything else I can put around me that will be a positive influence where as before I was dishonest and only saying I was. At this point I know I want to quit, I don’t want this to be my life anymore. I don’t want to hurt my family anymore. I want this to end but I also want to be successful in beating it. Not clean for a week then getting high again. Are there any suggestions on where to go from here? Would I be able to do another taper with a stronger will and taking it seriously, not as a pass to free pills to binge on? I think I can, I know I was wrong and I feel the guilt of it everyday. I was dishonest to get pain pills while on a contract with my Dr to taper off of them. What should I do now? Any advice would be helpful.

Thanks,
X

I see that you are a Christian. Do you honestly believe? I was hooked on opium poppies. Not as severely as you.It was God that granted me my freedom. No two ways about it. If you are truly desirous of your freedom, get into prayer. Your church can help with this. Go to them, get surrounded with believers in prayer. Pray to God for strength. If you are sincere, you will have your freedom. I will pray for you.

 

[chilehed]

xcalibure,

I'm not a doctor, but my understanding is that there can be some serious health issues involving withdrawal from Percocett. It would be a VERY good idea to have supervision, and I highly recommend checking into a treatment facility for this one so you can be closely monitored. Find out what your insuance coverage is for substance abuse treatment.

For the long haul, hook up with the N.A. fellowship in your area.
www.na.org