dont know what to do anymore

[JCFollower828]

it starts the same every time. i dont even know how to explain it. i just want to be dead because i am of no use to God. just a disappointment.

 

[Gods4me]

you are not a dispointment to god.
god has got a plan out there for u just pray and ask him to keep u strong

on sunday night at church we sang a song that we have a millon times but last night it hit me


be BOLD be STRONG
for the LORD OUR GOD IS WITH YOU
be bold be strong for the lord your god is with you
I AM NOT AFAIRD (no no no)
i AM NOT DIsmade (not me)
for im walking in faith and history
gonna walk in faith and history
for the lord our god is WITH YOU

 

[goldenviolet]

seasons of our spiritual self can feel low. it's normal. what we should do when we feel empty is pray, seek, and look for what is praiseworthy and blessed. this can mean stopping to smell flowers... good music... a warm hug... art... walking... etc. what can you do to help manage your moods? sometimes we need professional assistance too. crisis hot lines are a great resource. a real voice coahing you. you are valuable. valuable enough to be called child of God. valuable enough to have a king sacrifice his life so you could live. fill up on God's promises. no one, not even you can snatch or corrupt them.

1 Peter 1:3-9
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, 7 that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, 8 whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, 9 receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls.

 

[bfly]

JCF, you have a use, you can be used mightly right here on the forum. The needs are way too many for such few to handle.

So purpose in your mind and heart you are needed and you have a use and God can use the weakest of us.

Lord, my friend is suffering and tearing herself down. We all love her so much but she is in need of Your help at this moment Lord.

Lord, come sit with her, let her feel your nail scared hands, let her see your tear stained face, breathe on her Lord Jesus, renew her spirit. Lord, I pray carry her burdens, let her know she is not alone. Make happy her heart. Put people in her path to bring joy and peace and happiness to her soul. Let her know her crys are heard and not a tear fall from her face that you don't know about. Build her up Lord, bring her back to us, she is needed in so many areas to help do your work. Give her that strength and courage and assurance agian in her life. In Jesus name, I pray. amen

 

[sistagirl]

Girl hold on though u feel like this your not alone the thing is ure not a disapointment and u wont be god loved us so much thats why he gave his only son..........ure precious to him i pray that u wont feel like this that god will pick u up and carry u i pray he will shower his love on u in ure time of need BIG BIG BIG ones to u from me

 

[JCFollower828]

thanks guys. i feel better than monday, but worse than yesterday. but i am trying to hang on. i just feel so cut off and forsaken by my friends at school. sometimes i and torn by wanting God to leave me and begging Him to not too. i am tired of fighting and acting okay when i am not. i never stay at one forum for long because when i fall again i cant ask for help because failed them again. like they wasted time praying for someone who isnt going to get better. a small victory is won each time, but my mind is so broken. i am not good enough for anyone to stick around for. i am waiting for the day when God gives up on me, i know it will happen sooner or later.

 

[Amin]

Hi, How are ya? I have depression and anxiety, and sometimes I ask God also, what's the use? I'm feeling really depressed right now, but ya know, we can't deny that there's a God. There are too many things around us that point to a higher being, God. I can't explain everything to you, I wouldn't even try.
I've been told that God doesn't make mistakes, and I believe that, even tho
there are a lot of His children feeling miserable, and I know you've heard this a thousand times, God has a plan for your life and mine, even tho we can't at this time see it. Some years back, there was a song by Sam and Dave, It was called Hold On , I'm Coming. It was a secular song, but those four words seem appropriate. I know from experience that it hurts, and gets very tiresome, to the point of fatigue, this thing we call holding on. I wrote a song some time ago, called; Jesus, Keeper of My Soul.
It starts out; You're Jesus, keeper of my soul, your love is the only thing that makes my life whole, when broken and spilled out, by this worlds pain and strife,
your hand holds the thread of love that mends, a broken life. I guess I would ask you to hold on with me, until we're
mended by that thread of Love. Take Care, and don't let anything stop you from posting how you're doing, reguardless of how many times it is. We're Gods' children; We're supposed to help one another. I hope somewhere in these words, Ive made a little sense.
Take Care, Amin. (short for A-Minor )

thanks guys. i feel better than monday, but worse than yesterday. but i am trying to hang on. i just feel so cut off and forsaken by my friends at school. sometimes i and torn by wanting God to leave me and begging Him to not too. i am tired of fighting and acting okay when i am not. i never stay at one forum for long because when i fall again i cant ask for help because failed them again. like they wasted time praying for someone who isnt going to get better. a small victory is won each time, but my mind is so broken. i am not good enough for anyone to stick around for. i am waiting for the day when God gives up on me, i know it will happen sooner or later.

 

[sistagirl]

i just ask u to hold on to God trust in him u may not realise this but ure more precious to god our father than u may realise now but i tell u God has awesum plans for u u might feel useless but trust in god and he will lift u high BIG ONES TO U FROM ME i kno wats it like to not have a sence of direction but i have learnt that by puttin my trust in God he has come through and i shown me direction i will be prayin for you!

 

[JDDCH]

i am not good enough for anyone to stick around for. i am waiting for the day when God gives up on me, i know it will happen sooner or later.

You're plenty good enough for my prayers and I'll pray for you daily. I have no requirements for you to meet, no tasks for you to accomplish, and no minimums to meet in order for me to continue praying for you. You are good enough and I will pray diligently for you. I know God loves you and even though you're having trouble hearing Him and feeling His presence right now, He is there for you even now. If he loves a wretch like me, I know He loves you.

Be strong, from one struggle to the next - hang in there. I'll continue praying. If you need to talk, I'll be there. I'm sure others will as well. Support is important and you take advantage of what's available.

God Loves You. You're here for a reason and not a mistake. Be strong, take one day at a time and recover.

--jd.

 

[rosemoss]

God loves you, the same yesterday as today and the same tomorrow, no matter what you do or don't do...I'm learning that myself..it's so EASY to give into self doubt and circumstances around us..much harder to stop the thoughts and think about God and His precious son..but much more worth it!
You're in my prayers!
God Bless You!

 

[Taylor43]

Hun i can relate to you so much, I want you to know no matter how you feel God really does care about you and he knows your pain I know right now you do not feel that way. Keep reaching out to Cf and other trusted areas. keeping you in my prayers tonight Friends do reject and it hurts. But Jesus will never leave you no matter what, that keeps me going.
Love
Taylor

 

[HolyOne87]

Don't say that. God made you for a reason. I know thats a simplistic response, but it's true. I was feeling the same way you were a couple of months ago, and then God came in and pulled me out of that darkness in my life. I remember how it happened, I was sitting in my church and all I thought of was, "What can I do in this world?..I have nothing to offer'. Then what God helped me remember is that I have a heart full of love..And this love can be spread to everyone and that this love will not only make the people you give it to feel good, but also yourself.
I am sure you have a lot of love in your heart and I am sure you are not a disappointment. Everytime I do something and it turns out bad, I just say to myself, "I will learn from this..I will learn from my mistakes and press forward, with God at my side, helping me through".
Everyone on this board is right. God DOES care about you,JCF!
I hope and pray you will be okay. I hope you got something from my post. If not, I apologize and I will try and post something better on my next post.

+God Bless+

Kerri
P.S.- I remember this quote I read on a post by a friend of mine on another board. Maybe you can relate to it..

"Only when everything is hopeless does hope become strong. It is in the darkest times that God makes His presence known most clearly"~~Anonymous

it starts the same every time. i dont even know how to explain it. i just want to be dead because i am of no use to God. just a disappointment.

 

[JCFollower828]

thank you everyone. wow its been awhile since ive been here. i got some good news and bad news. i will start with the bad to get it over with. this last tuesday was the worst. well it was actually the weekend. you see my church broke up and last weekend we got together for a sleepover, its been about 6months since we saw them. the reopened pain of it all numbed me and i started drifting. and tuesday i was all set to committ suicide, but after things happened that delayed it, i had time to think things through. but i did cut . what almost destoyed me was that i lost communication w/ God. i was so angery and hurt that i just shut down. but the good news is that i got things right with GOd. and i felt like God shined His light on me or something. i know any lie, to protect someone or not isnt right, but my sister asked me about my cuts and i did what i had to. i lied. i couldnt do it. they would send me somewhere or something. well i promise that i am okay now. thanks again everyone! love yall! and yes, what u said did help Kerri. and everyone else too.

andrea

 

[JDDCH]

I'm so very happy to see you still with us. I know times get hard ... *sigh* ... c'mere you ~

Reach out to your sister if you can. She loves you and cares for you. If you level with her, I mean sit her down and talk heart to heart, she might be able to help you find peace and some help. You don't need locked up anywhere or sent away to get help with depression. If you're not actively trying to kill yourself, which I think you've put that behind you know, you don't need to be locked-up ... but perhaps an antidepressant medication and a good ear would be a good remedy. Taking that first step is always the hardest, but the relief you get is so uplifting it's hard to compare it to anything.

I'll keep you in my prayers. You're not a failure. You're worth every moment of my time in prayer. I'm here for you.

-- jd, bringing JCFollower828 to the Lord in prayer ...

 

[HolyOne87]

I am happy to hear you are okay. I am glad I, as well as others, did help you.
I am going to join in on that hug JD started.
I will also keep you in my prayers. I shall pray that God continues to give you the strength to stay strong!

+God Bless+

Kerri

 

[JCFollower828]

thank u, i appreciate it, im doing better everyday.

 

[notallwhowanderarelost]

I know how your feeling, because I can feel that way too, but somewhere deep down I know God loves me and has a plan for my life - I know He has one for you too, Praying today will be a better day for you.

 

[Snoofles]

((((((((JCF)))))))))) you are one of His beloved, and aren't a mistake. you can be used by Him in everyday life, by blessing others even in the smallest ways and not realizing it's going on. He has a mighty plan to use you GBU. i'm praying for you.

 

[JCFollower828]

thanks everyone. after schools out today over the summer im not gonna be on as often. it would be too much of a risk. so everyone take care of yourselves. i love you all like my own brothers and sisters. i am glad i know u all.

 

[HolyOne87]

I love ya too! Take care of yourself!!!