Don't ignore this if you ever loved.

[Bella22]

I have just signed into this forum. It's currently late at night, where I life , but I needed to share this now. I'm sorry if my English is not correct, my maternal language isn't English. I couldn't help myself in any other way than finding a forum, where people with similar beliefs and thoughts share their opinions.
I have got a problem. I don't even know why I sit here writing this. I know there is nobody, that is really interested in me, why should anybody be. I just signed in, I didn't even take the time to create a significant account or to get to know this forum. I just feel the strongest need of sharing and overthinking what I'm feeling currently.

Nobody here knows my name, nobody knows what my past looks like. All you need to know about me is that I truely believe in God and in the pure love that he wants us to feel.
I don't even know if it is right what I'm talking about, I can only tell what my body and spiritual mind is saying.

Some may already stop reading, because they don't feel the need of listening to someone that could just write nothing more than lies. But please, if there is anyone reading this, please keep reading. It would mean the world to me. You can't tell, but if you could just think of yourself having felt such a heavy pressure to share your story one time and just need somebody to listen to what you need to tell? If you ever experienced a situation like this please stay with me.

It may be the hardest decision ever for me to write down my deepest feelings. But I need to.
The topic of my post will be love. Take a second. Think about if you love somebody and I'm sure you'll feel that warmth rise inside your heart when you read that word again.

Love.

Imagine. Sure, all of you have been in the situation where you needed to talk to anybody about what is going on.

May I shortly explain what is the case.

See, there is a person. I have known the person for a pretty long time now, and from the moment I first talked and looked at this person I fell in love with all my heart. This love is not the kind of which u may think a teenager experiences or the kind that just makes you feel safe. This is the kind of love where you know, this person is going to have to be in your life until you both will find away to be in each others lifes. Since I know this person, there is this hope that fullfills my whole soul, this hope that we may get the chance to share what God has made us for.

The whole thing and why I need to tell you this is, that I am not able to share my feelings. I tried to give all I have and I gave more, I would have done anything, but the person, didn't just used me. The person made me a true believer of Goods and brought me to my Relationship with God. Even though I havn't had any experience that includes any more body contact than a slight hug or touching the persons hands, I cant explain the feeling I felt doing this. It felt like I touched my own soul or better the half that
is missing.

Even though I haven't spent much time with the person, how is it possible that I can't go on. That the hope does't drown even if I have already fallen in love again. How am I able to know that this person belongs to me if the person tore me apart and broke me.

I tried to tell myself that I need to let go, the person doesn't love me, but in someway I deeply know that that isn't the case.



Excuse me, I didn't want to disturb anybody here, but I needed to let this out of my soul. I could no longer let this drown inside me.
Please help.

 

[Bluerose31]

I have just signed into this forum. It's currently late at night, where I life , but I needed to share this now. I'm sorry if my English is not correct, my maternal language isn't English. I couldn't help myself in any other way than finding a forum, where people with similar beliefs and thoughts share their opinions.
I have got a problem. I don't even know why I sit here writing this. I know there is nobody, that is really interested in me, why should anybody be. I just signed in, I didn't even take the time to create a significant account or to get to know this forum. I just feel the strongest need of sharing and overthinking what I'm feeling currently.

Nobody here knows my name, nobody knows what my past looks like. All you need to know about me is that I truely believe in God and in the pure love that he wants us to feel.
I don't even know if it is right what I'm talking about, I can only tell what my body and spiritual mind is saying.

Some may already stop reading, because they don't feel the need of listening to someone that could just write nothing more than lies. But please, if there is anyone reading this, please keep reading. It would mean the world to me. You can't tell, but if you could just think of yourself having felt such a heavy pressure to share your story one time and just need somebody to listen to what you need to tell? If you ever experienced a situation like this please stay with me.

It may be the hardest decision ever for me to write down my deepest feelings. But I need to.
The topic of my post will be love. Take a second. Think about if you love somebody and I'm sure you'll feel that warmth rise inside your heart when you read that word again.

Love.

Imagine. Sure, all of you have been in the situation where you needed to talk to anybody about what is going on.

May I shortly explain what is the case.

See, there is a person. I have known the person for a pretty long time now, and from the moment I first talked and looked at this person I fell in love with all my heart. This love is not the kind of which u may think a teenager experiences or the kind that just makes you feel safe. This is the kind of love where you know, this person is going to have to be in your life until you both will find away to be in each others lifes. Since I know this person, there is this hope that fullfills my whole soul, this hope that we may get the chance to share what God has made us for.

The whole thing and why I need to tell you this is, that I am not able to share my feelings. I tried to give all I have and I gave more, I would have done anything, but the person, didn't just used me. The person made me a true believer of Goods and brought me to my Relationship with God. Even though I havn't had any experience that includes any more body contact than a slight hug or touching the persons hands, I cant explain the feeling I felt doing this. It felt like I touched my own soul or better the half that
is missing.

Even though I haven't spent much time with the person, how is it possible that I can't go on. That the hope does't drown even if I have already fallen in love again. How am I able to know that this person belongs to me if the person tore me apart and broke me.

I tried to tell myself that I need to let go, the person doesn't love me, but in someway I deeply know that that isn't the case.



Excuse me, I didn't want to disturb anybody here, but I needed to let this out of my soul. I could no longer let this drown inside me.
Please help.

I am sorry you are in distress about this person you deeply care for. My prayer is that God will comfort you and direct your friendship with this person. God loves you very much and he will protect, guide and love you.

 

[John 1720]

I have just signed into this forum. It's currently late at night, where I life , but I needed to share this now. I'm sorry if my English is not correct, my maternal language isn't English. I couldn't help myself in any other way than finding a forum, where people with similar beliefs and thoughts share their opinions.
I have got a problem. I don't even know why I sit here writing this. I know there is nobody, that is really interested in me, why should anybody be. I just signed in, I didn't even take the time to create a significant account or to get to know this forum. I just feel the strongest need of sharing and overthinking what I'm feeling currently.

Nobody here knows my name, nobody knows what my past looks like. All you need to know about me is that I truely believe in God and in the pure love that he wants us to feel.
I don't even know if it is right what I'm talking about, I can only tell what my body and spiritual mind is saying.

Some may already stop reading, because they don't feel the need of listening to someone that could just write nothing more than lies. But please, if there is anyone reading this, please keep reading. It would mean the world to me. You can't tell, but if you could just think of yourself having felt such a heavy pressure to share your story one time and just need somebody to listen to what you need to tell? If you ever experienced a situation like this please stay with me.

It may be the hardest decision ever for me to write down my deepest feelings. But I need to.
The topic of my post will be love. Take a second. Think about if you love somebody and I'm sure you'll feel that warmth rise inside your heart when you read that word again.

Love.

Imagine. Sure, all of you have been in the situation where you needed to talk to anybody about what is going on.

May I shortly explain what is the case.

See, there is a person. I have known the person for a pretty long time now, and from the moment I first talked and looked at this person I fell in love with all my heart. This love is not the kind of which u may think a teenager experiences or the kind that just makes you feel safe. This is the kind of love where you know, this person is going to have to be in your life until you both will find away to be in each others lifes. Since I know this person, there is this hope that fullfills my whole soul, this hope that we may get the chance to share what God has made us for.

The whole thing and why I need to tell you this is, that I am not able to share my feelings. I tried to give all I have and I gave more, I would have done anything, but the person, didn't just used me. The person made me a true believer of Goods and brought me to my Relationship with God. Even though I havn't had any experience that includes any more body contact than a slight hug or touching the persons hands, I cant explain the feeling I felt doing this. It felt like I touched my own soul or better the half that
is missing.

Even though I haven't spent much time with the person, how is it possible that I can't go on. That the hope does't drown even if I have already fallen in love again. How am I able to know that this person belongs to me if the person tore me apart and broke me.

I tried to tell myself that I need to let go, the person doesn't love me, but in someway I deeply know that that isn't the case.



Excuse me, I didn't want to disturb anybody here, but I needed to let this out of my soul. I could no longer let this drown inside me.
Please help.

Hi Bella,
It sounds like the person you have come to admire and love is the very one who told you about the goodness of God and has led you to both belief and faith. Additionally they are unaware that your love for them goes deeper than just a friend and mentor. I also take it that you are young. I'm not a trained youth counselor and do not usually answer these types of posts but, as a former youth leader in my Church, I would advise you to pray about your feelings to the Father, in the Name of His Son, Jesus. God already sees and knows your true feelings, as well knowing what is real inside the human heart and what is not. This is true for both you and for the other young person who happens to be the object of your affection.

Truth and love must go together and God, being the true source of love and truth, means we cannot do better than to go to seek Him out. God is the source of a mighty river of love in us and that river can winds its way through us and well up inside our former borders to redefine us, reshape our banks and even create secondary tributaries that water the landscape before us. Love is always fruitful and good if love is indeed real. It is quite easy when you are young for your heart to run away with you and to feel distress when love appears to be unrequited. The music industry is fueled by these sentiments but know that not all their songs ring true. So I would advise you, as I did for my own children, to have faith in Christ. Take the journey in discover the length, depth, and fullness of Him whom you have been taught about, and let God direct your path in the sweetness of life as you develop in Him.

If things are to ever meant to be reciprocal then God will bring things to fruition someday and He will do so in His own proper time. Rest in Him who loved you enough to go to the cross for your life. First and foremost enjoy your newfound relationship with Christ who is able to fulfill every void of the human heart if you allow Him to. I guess what I am really saying is that all human relationships need prayer in order to develop themselves in God rather than in their own self wisdom. Sometimes internal attractions of the heart can overtake our godly wisdom and lead us astray from God's will for us. So please have faith in God who knows every heart and who truly is the doctor of your very own heart. God does care about your future relationships, including how they develop, whether they be relationships of friendship, family or of the romantic ilk. A good read for you might be the Book of Ruth, who was David's grandmother. See how God worked that problem out - its a great story. Meanwhile I did my best to listen, respond and pray for you that God would direct you to the peace within His heart that will give you hope and stay as well as grow you in the love of Christ.
May God bless you
John 17:20