- Apr 13, 2019
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I have suffered from OCD on and off for several years. Before I was a Christian, I would say things like "If you step on a crack it means that something bad will happen," or "If you roll an even number on a dice it means that something bad will happen if you go to that party,"
My OCD stopped for a while after I became a Christian but it has recently come back. Now, I think things like "God, if I toss a coin and get heads it means that if I do that specific activity something bad will happen,". Sometimes I am really specific. I'll say things like "God, if I watch exactly five youtube videos before my battery runs out, it means that I can do that activity. If my battery runs out before or after the fifth video, it means that if can't do that activity or something bad will happen,". And then if my battery runs out before the fifth video ends and I still do the activity anyway, I end up feeling really guilty.
Does God answer or respond to these types of OCD rituals. Is he answering me, or is it just OCD?
My OCD stopped for a while after I became a Christian but it has recently come back. Now, I think things like "God, if I toss a coin and get heads it means that if I do that specific activity something bad will happen,". Sometimes I am really specific. I'll say things like "God, if I watch exactly five youtube videos before my battery runs out, it means that I can do that activity. If my battery runs out before or after the fifth video, it means that if can't do that activity or something bad will happen,". And then if my battery runs out before the fifth video ends and I still do the activity anyway, I end up feeling really guilty.
Does God answer or respond to these types of OCD rituals. Is he answering me, or is it just OCD?