I couldn't find any other, more appropriate title in my time of doubt. What am I doubting, you ask? Everything. Let me give you the whole story... Almost a year ago, I met this gal in a chatroom, her name is Megan. Claimed to be 16, we quickly found lots in common and we were quite good friends. I'd listen to her if she had something to say, which was often, I'd say she trusted me with everything, and I wouldn't be joking. Every little intimate detail of her life that she needed help with, I knew about. And, as a teenage guy, I was surprised, since I was not really looking for more than friendship with her, I was happy just being there for her. She was really getting down recently, and I couldn't figure out why, and she wouldn't tell me. She wouldn't be any fun anymore, one word answers and lots of trailing off. Last Monday she confessed, she's not as old as she's told me for the last year, she's two years younger. And she wants so much more out of us than just friends. I was shocked, as you probably could have guessed, and I didn't know what to say. But, she had to leave right then, and so I didn't get a chance to say anything. The next morning, she wrote me a long letter about how sorry she was that she'd lied, and kept all her feelings to herself for so long. She also said that she couldn't take any more pain, she'd die if it didn't work out. Meaning she would kill herself. I still didn't know what I should say, but I wrote her back, saying that I was willing to go forward and see where we ended up. But I didn't get a chance to talk to her on Tuesday, I had to work that night. And then on Wednesday, I didn't hear from her, and I was working again. I didn't get to sleep until late this morning, and my nice sleep was interrupted by a phone call at around 10 this morning; she killed herself last night, I suppose she thought I was avoiding her, and rejecting her. She had a sticky note with my phone number on it, and the only other thing on it was "Tell Greg I'll always love him." So that's it, I suppose. I mostly wanted some people to know, maybe someone has some advice or something for me, since I'm also tangled up in depression, and I'm bipolar. But today has just been not so good overall. 
Anything at all anyone's got to say?
Anything at all anyone's got to say?
for you.
