Hi once again!
Good to hear from you..
I don't like life, its not a matter of how good my lifestyle is. I could have a billion dollars and id still want to die.
they say money don't bring happiness. only make sofa you sit on more comfortable....
i think that, only giving yourself to others, or case you believe in, or God, or all together make us feel whole.
And what is happiness for you? Do you remember what used to bring you joy?
I want to sleep. Nothing makes me happy, nothing is enjoyable. I don't want to feel pain or struggle any more.
I may be very wrong but this sounds like you might suffer from depression.
I know it only because my mother is quite often balancing on the line of depression.
If it would be the case, then the pain you feel my be eased.
As for struggle. I had a brain tumor. While i was in hospital i have seen and met people with cancer. Their health and life is take away from them, but they can give really a though fight to have few weeks or months more. Even in pain they want to live.
There is good in this life, deadmanxzxz! There are thing worth holding on and fight!
Im ill and I cant do any thing right, I dont work or any thing and I dont have any one. No friends and no lover.
if I'm not to nosy

, what's wrong with your health? I'm also single. i have friends, but i had to learn that i have to be their friend first. And that most people are very afraid to make first move, to be pushed away. i though that I can be the one handle fear, so i try to approach them first...i don't say it's solution for you.. you have to find your way
What problems do you have with "friends"?
What are you talking about? Give me clear literal instructions.
look for people who help those who have suicidal thoughts. Speak to doctor. Be patient with your self. Talk to someone you trust. Remind yourself what did make you happy. Look for a meaning for your life, maybe try to help someone around you?
I'm going to Barcelona today. If you want to get postcard from there pm me your address

natalia