Yes, praying would be nice. Yet, maybe some practicle stuff could help to.
ALL IS NOT LOST!
You are in college. Writing is like the back of your hand, so. Make an outline of the things that are good and the things that can be done.
1. You have a place to stay... a friend. Not bad? You could have no place to go. But, you do!
2. A part time job could be done. 24 hours a week or so? Flipping burgers? If you have to. (yuck.) Or cashier somewhere? (Somewhat yuck!) Transportation... your friend, maybe.
Put, down what you have. Put what you need. You have by Holloween to move. Don't get ahead of yourself. By putting these things down and leaving in blanks for the stuff you have to wait for, you can take that piece of paper and set it down and say this, "I have it down! I can always go back to it. Now I can relax my mind.
I remember when I had to move out. No choice. Had to. So, I made this type of outline. An apartment was needed. I called about an apartment in the newspaper. Made an apointment with the realitor. Found my apartment. Put barrowed money down. Got the key to it. And took everything I had and through it in there. I was excited and full of dread. I didn't even unpack. It was nightfall by the time I got my pet turtle in the place, the last thing, and I took a blanket and hit the couch, (no bed, and slept uneasily...)
I woke up. I was not in my own bed but that couch... and went outside and sat infont of my apartment. And...
The next day was there... other peoples homes were there... cars were going to work... trees were there... birds were singing.. .and...
Life was still the same!
The world did not come to an end. It didn't. That told me that being on my own didn't destroy me. I went back into my cluttered apartment. MY APARMENT! No parents. No anyone. Mine.
Turned the page to my outline, and called who I needed to call and created an outline to pay that rent check, to get to work (school.)
There is nothing like the first sensation of having your own apartment... or being out from your parents wing in a place that is your own where you can do what you want. A freedom with awesome responsibility and trhe realization that if you can get that far, there is a good chance you can go further.
The whole point is to outline your life in this crises. Outlining it allows you TO PUT DOWN THE CRISES so you can relax your mind, and take one step at a time.
I spent all my life being under someone elses wing and feeling security all the time, wondering... can I do it? And, then when I was forced to, I had no choice. I organized my life and fell straight from the frying pan into the fire... and I was still there. That told me that doesn't end when you start your own life.
So, as one Christian to another? You can be your own worst enemy when you believe it is so. Worrying goes from stepping out on your own..to being homeless. That creates the anxiety and makes the depression worse. But, the reality is, the world never goes that fast. Moving out does not make you helpless. It goes in steps...and when you see that, it doesn't seem so insurmountable.
You will take one step at a time. Outlining what you need to do will allow you to concentrate on only one thing at a time for you have time.
The trick is knowing that God will never forsake you. He will never challenge or test you beyond your limits. And, when you feel hopeless, he will always be there. I knew that God would never forsake me. All I needed to do was try my best to get over my anxiety and depression and used what I knew best. My faith and what I knew.
So, I knew that organizing all that I feared into a time table and concentrating on each thing in turn could help me for I could not do it all at once. I would be overwhelmed.
SO, now it's my turn to take a similar situation and help you to.
