I have read that sometimes, God wants to change our hearts before He changes our circumstances.
I am happy reading the word and seeing and hearing other Christians.
I am uneasy at the moment because I work 9-5pm in a small office, tucked away in a quiet and affluent suburban-commercial area.
I do not get to speak about God in those 8 hours. I do get to listen to Christian resources which is great. But when I learn something new I get excited but there is nowhere to go or no one to share it with.
I have been at this workplace for one and a half years. That is a long time.
In the beginning, i thought of it as a career where I would rise to the top like King David. But now, after I have seen and understood that I am not favoured there and I am not great enough to not ignore, it has become a job that I do just to pay the rent, buy food and clothes and petrol and pay off the car.
Thoughts have passed of selling everything and studying the word full time on government finance (Aus) and work part time somewhere. That idea did not and does not suit me well.
Another option I have is to just change workplaces for a bigger company or in a faster paced area where there are more people.
Ideally I would like to work in a Christian company. A red hot Christian company. Not just a company that states its Christian principles or values on its website and then you go there or call and realise that the Christ values are only for show on the website just like a secular company promising integrity as one of its values. I want a die hard Christian company where I can work and use my natural physical abilities and God-given gifts.
There are so many music artists who do this. I have a degree in business. I have seen 'called to business' websites but there is no channel/market a young man can go to and do in business what Christian musicians do in the music industry.
Please pray that I will find something.
It does get frustrating in the little office space. Each spirit is contending for their will to be done. There are nationalists, atheists, pharisees, lost Christians finding their way slowly and part-time worldly Christians. I would term myself as the spiritually starved Christian who stumbles often but wants reproval rather than a slow part-time journey to Christ - maybe... No, I am running to Christ and I want to represent Him even though I know He does not need me, and I believe He is readying my heart before he releases me.
I am happy reading the word and seeing and hearing other Christians.
I am uneasy at the moment because I work 9-5pm in a small office, tucked away in a quiet and affluent suburban-commercial area.
I do not get to speak about God in those 8 hours. I do get to listen to Christian resources which is great. But when I learn something new I get excited but there is nowhere to go or no one to share it with.
I have been at this workplace for one and a half years. That is a long time.
In the beginning, i thought of it as a career where I would rise to the top like King David. But now, after I have seen and understood that I am not favoured there and I am not great enough to not ignore, it has become a job that I do just to pay the rent, buy food and clothes and petrol and pay off the car.
Thoughts have passed of selling everything and studying the word full time on government finance (Aus) and work part time somewhere. That idea did not and does not suit me well.
Another option I have is to just change workplaces for a bigger company or in a faster paced area where there are more people.
Ideally I would like to work in a Christian company. A red hot Christian company. Not just a company that states its Christian principles or values on its website and then you go there or call and realise that the Christ values are only for show on the website just like a secular company promising integrity as one of its values. I want a die hard Christian company where I can work and use my natural physical abilities and God-given gifts.
There are so many music artists who do this. I have a degree in business. I have seen 'called to business' websites but there is no channel/market a young man can go to and do in business what Christian musicians do in the music industry.
Please pray that I will find something.
It does get frustrating in the little office space. Each spirit is contending for their will to be done. There are nationalists, atheists, pharisees, lost Christians finding their way slowly and part-time worldly Christians. I would term myself as the spiritually starved Christian who stumbles often but wants reproval rather than a slow part-time journey to Christ - maybe... No, I am running to Christ and I want to represent Him even though I know He does not need me, and I believe He is readying my heart before he releases me.