Die heart, die!

[iambren]

I feel so stupid, so lost, so hurt, so WEIRD to still love my ex-wife. I mean, will my heart never mend? If it doesn't, to what end?

I went over to the house where she and the boys live. I go over to swim with the boys, then change,and walk out to the car and go to my house. She was on the couch and as I walked by her I couldn't help it and said "I still care about you" after which she quietly mumbled. I walked on.

I don't get this, 20 years ago I went through a divorced, healed within one year and moved on. But this love(post 3 year dissolution) is like granite; I love her as if I was still married to her. My heart will NOT die over her.....and there is nothing I can do but trust God's ways. It's so hard on the heart though.

 

[McScribe]

I understand how you feel. I have no answers but I do understand.

 

[peacechild4]

Have you prayed GOD take it away.. the love for her I mean.. I kinda imagined you would have.. though you may not want it to go either.. I don't encourage you to pray the other sort of prayer.. many years ago.. I fell out of love with my husband who is soon to be my ex.. and pleaded with the LORD to help me love him because I had no love left in my heart.. HE answered.. and the love was strong.. and got me through many many difficult years and times.. that I have recently had to ask GOD to take it away again.. only because I know what you mean.. you cannot live with that kind of love in your heart..

I never thought my broken heart would heal.. but GOD has done it in the last few months.. you have to let go though and thats hard.. GOD does give us a will and a choice about things.. which unfortunately for the other half can mean refusing GOD.. and us.. We cannot make someone love us.. and I doubt GOD would either.. because I prayed every sort of prayer you could imagine for GOD to do that.. Seems to be only a person can choose GOD on their own or choose to love..

 

[lindart]

iambren, perhaps God desires that your family would be healed His Way. You and your ex wife brought God's children into the world and He wants you both to love them and raise them His Way. I do believe that this is what God ordains that families should not be broken. Sin hurts our little children horribly. I am bold because I have been there. If there be any way, heal your marriage and if not, still always be there for your children! God be with you and your children.