I wrote this one day, a few weeks ago about something that happened to me one day.
Okay. So lately I've been pretty entwined with guilt and worry and struggling with other things. Like, my stomach hasn't been at rest for a while now in miniature knots. So ever since a long whole ago I had been praying and praying that God would help me and show His face (not in a derogatory way). Or to show himself in some way. So today, I started to feel a little better. Then, in that last song, I was singing the "Holy Spirit you are welcome here.." song. I was signing really loud practically begging God for the Holy Spirit, cause I knew that was just what I needed. So, I decided to close my eyes and sing it because I knew the words.
So I closed my eyes and I had a random thought.. "Huh.. It's really Wierd when I close my eyes.. It's like I'm looking into a little room." Unrelated to the story
) So you know how when you close your eyes you see little blotches of red and black? We'll keep that in mind for a few minutes.
After that Wierd little thought my mind went blank for a couple of seconds, and then BAM. Those little red and black blotches? Made up Jesus' face. No joke. I saw HIS FACE! I started crying! I get cold chills in a WHOA way even thinking about it! Whoa.
So one thing that went through my mind was that He has been looking out for me! He knew I needed that! Like He's saying: "It's okay." :O
Then I thought EVERYTHING I ever worried about.. Gone. Like that just.. Idk.
After that the quick image was gone and I was just standing there, I thought about how he answered ALL my prayers and begging and pleading in my loudest voice in song.
I'm literally sitting here shaking typing about it.
So I sat down after the song, and when the speaker starting speaking, and was like.. What?
What?
The what the.. What?
You get the point. I thought- no, maybe I was just seeing little images out of the blotches like you do sometimes.. But the thing is, that happens when I'm trying. My mind went blank, remember?
I honestly had trouble concentrating during some of it. I tried to close my eyes and test the miracle I had just seen, and I saw something little, but again, I was trying.
Also, when I saw that image, it wasn't like- yup, there's Jesus. It was like being hit in the gut and face with awestruck, trying to hold back tears. Sound like something I just "made up in my head?"
So I came home, and honestly havnt stopped thinking about it. And you know what I remembered? Asking God numerous lay to "show His face." Whoa.
I still remember seeing the vague image of his eyebrows and nose, and maybe some hair. I could tell. I just could. It was so quick and blurred but just enough to tell me- "Hey, I havn't forgotten."
The feeling I got was immense peace and bliss and a feeling like I just wanted to worship. I thought, is this like heaven's like? Cause.. I'm willing to die right now if it is. Like, I'm willing to drop dead.
So, what do you think? I mean, how could something so intense be a coincidence?
Okay. So lately I've been pretty entwined with guilt and worry and struggling with other things. Like, my stomach hasn't been at rest for a while now in miniature knots. So ever since a long whole ago I had been praying and praying that God would help me and show His face (not in a derogatory way). Or to show himself in some way. So today, I started to feel a little better. Then, in that last song, I was singing the "Holy Spirit you are welcome here.." song. I was signing really loud practically begging God for the Holy Spirit, cause I knew that was just what I needed. So, I decided to close my eyes and sing it because I knew the words.
So I closed my eyes and I had a random thought.. "Huh.. It's really Wierd when I close my eyes.. It's like I'm looking into a little room." Unrelated to the story
) So you know how when you close your eyes you see little blotches of red and black? We'll keep that in mind for a few minutes.After that Wierd little thought my mind went blank for a couple of seconds, and then BAM. Those little red and black blotches? Made up Jesus' face. No joke. I saw HIS FACE! I started crying! I get cold chills in a WHOA way even thinking about it! Whoa.
So one thing that went through my mind was that He has been looking out for me! He knew I needed that! Like He's saying: "It's okay." :O
Then I thought EVERYTHING I ever worried about.. Gone. Like that just.. Idk.
After that the quick image was gone and I was just standing there, I thought about how he answered ALL my prayers and begging and pleading in my loudest voice in song.
I'm literally sitting here shaking typing about it.
So I sat down after the song, and when the speaker starting speaking, and was like.. What?
What?
The what the.. What?
You get the point. I thought- no, maybe I was just seeing little images out of the blotches like you do sometimes.. But the thing is, that happens when I'm trying. My mind went blank, remember?
I honestly had trouble concentrating during some of it. I tried to close my eyes and test the miracle I had just seen, and I saw something little, but again, I was trying.
Also, when I saw that image, it wasn't like- yup, there's Jesus. It was like being hit in the gut and face with awestruck, trying to hold back tears. Sound like something I just "made up in my head?"
So I came home, and honestly havnt stopped thinking about it. And you know what I remembered? Asking God numerous lay to "show His face." Whoa.
I still remember seeing the vague image of his eyebrows and nose, and maybe some hair. I could tell. I just could. It was so quick and blurred but just enough to tell me- "Hey, I havn't forgotten."
The feeling I got was immense peace and bliss and a feeling like I just wanted to worship. I thought, is this like heaven's like? Cause.. I'm willing to die right now if it is. Like, I'm willing to drop dead.
So, what do you think? I mean, how could something so intense be a coincidence?
