Developement and Love

[AWorkInProgress]

Good morning guys,

My heart wants to share with you all. To be a testimony that there is hope for you all. Here goes.

Over a year ago I was self diagnosed for ADD(Inattentive and Impulsive). I was just saved and one my online friends heard of my struggles to overcome my problems. When I was made aware of ADD syntoms, I had a laundry list of experiences that matched each one of them. Gave me lot of clearity on what specific problems I had.

Now today I am a totally different person. Lord carried me thru a great deal of pain and released me from it. Word of God, wisdom of God, and Holy Spirit's encouragement from has lead me out of great deal of my syntoms. I still struggle organizing my thoughts, but I am working on that with the Lord.

I posted about how important true love is to all this in prior posts. Today I want to share the discovery of the process of developement. You see my problem is not that I am not creative. More like I didn't understand that all things require developement. Spiritual growth, planning, organizing, creating solutions or projects. I learned that I can't be impatient and just rush to the end result. It takes time and lot of love to achieve that result.

My wife is awesome at making her own stationary, cards, cake decorating, and many other things. Her saying is that 'she sees God in the details.' She can tell when someone has put their heart into their work. I think this is what I struggle with a lot. I don't love the process, but I want the great result. Makes me think of Jonah. Focus is on the plant.

Jonah 4:5-10

5 Then Jonah went out to the east side of the city and made a shelter to sit under as he waited to see what would happen to the city. 6 And the Lord God arranged for a leafy plant to grow there, and soon it spread its broad leaves over Jonah’s head, shading him from the sun. This eased his discomfort, and Jonah was very grateful for the plant.

7 But God also arranged for a worm! The next morning at dawn the worm ate through the stem of the plant so that it withered away. 8 And as the sun grew hot, God arranged for a scorching east wind to blow on Jonah. The sun beat down on his head until he grew faint and wished to die. “Death is certainly better than living like this!” he exclaimed.
9 Then God said to Jonah, “Is it right for you to be angry because the plant died?”
“Yes,” Jonah retorted, “even angry enough to die!” 10 Then the Lord said, “You feel sorry about the plant, though you did nothing to put it there. It came quickly and died quickly. 11 But Nineveh has more than 120,000 people living in spiritual darkness, not to mention all the animals. Shouldn’t I feel sorry for such a great city?”

Like I want these awesome ideas I get to be made, but I don't truly love them or myself to make them happen. When you love something, you will get into the details of it. Mistakes are oppertunities to discover details too.

I might edit later. I hope this helps you.