Depression/Sickness Over Good Things?

[Barzel]

I posted this in the PTSD section, but thought I'd ask it here as well:

I have--for as long as I can remember--felt bad about good things. I get a promotion, and I get sick. I ask a girl out, she says yes, I get depressed. A woman I'm attracted to says she wants to call me tomorrow, I get sick and depressed. I have bipolar 1 as well as PTSD, and sometimes I don't know which one to blame for certain things, or if they're to blame at all. I just know I identify with the line from Con Air:

"Now he's so angry moments of levity actually cause him pain; gives him headaches. Happiness, for that gentleman, hurts."

Can anyone relate or offer any suggestions? I'm weary of eating pink bismuth tablets every time someone gives me good news.

 

[JesusFo11ower]

Maybe it's responsibility that scares you. There is a lot of responsibility in getting a promotion or going out on a date. I think that has to be some of the problem.

 

[Barzel]

Maybe it's responsibility that scares you. There is a lot of responsibility in getting a promotion or going out on a date. I think that has to be some of the problem.

What leads you to that assumption?

 

[CraftyTurtle]

Survivor's guilt? Or maybe you feel you don't deserve it. Or maybe the responsibility that goes along with the promotion/girlfriend, is daunting. Or maybe you are afraid of losing the good things, and the more good things you have, the more there is to lose.

For me, it's usually that I don't feel deserving.