hoplessss said:
Well, bascially I've been depressed for as long as I can remember and I've seen plenty of counselors I'm forced to go to a christian school by my parents which has basically turned me off from christianity since they're all irritating hypocrites...but i was wondering, since it seems to work for some people...or at least they act like it does, if God can really change anything or if I'm better off just killing myself. I know that sounds like a stupid question but if I have to help myself then I know I'm not strong enough to all that cause I'm just toooo tired at this point. And I don't even know why I'm even considering asking god for help since I'm basically an atheist...but I just wondered what a TRUE christian perspective would be.
And also, if God is sooo good then why does he put some of these struggles out there in the first place, I mean, i hear its to test you and all that crap but whats the point of doing all that when he could just leave you alone and allow you to be content the way you are instead of trying to mes with you all the time.
People will always disappoint you, but Jesus never will. Unfortunately we take our eyes off of Jesus when we look at other Christians. Like Peter when he stepped out of the boat, we will sink if we allow ourselves to lose our focus.
You are special to God. He loves you and you must never lose sight of that.
Unfortunately other Christians are flawed just as we are. They struggle the same way you do. They can and often do give poor witness. This happens when we get disconnected with God. Because they are Christian we assume that their motives are always good. That isn't always the case.
Living with other Christians can cause us to get discouraged if we let it happen. When we live in close proximity to them we see all of their flaws.
Hypocrisy is a big problem in the church. It often has its roots in legalism and judgementalism. Jesus condemned hypocrisy and it sounds like you are too. We cannot let that drag us down, though. Instead of looking at what is bad we need to focus on the good.
I have been through the depths of depression. I hit bottom and lived to tell about it. It happened because I focused on what was wrong with my life and lost sight of how good life can be. I stopped taking responsibility for my own actions and blamed others. I was angry with God for giving me an unfair burden.
We choose to be happy or not. Sometimes in our anger and frustration it is easier to feel bad because it confirms that we are right. Bad things are happening in your life so you use this as a way of vindicating your feelings. At least you feel that you are right about this one thing. We come to believe that life sucks because we surround ourselves with bad thoughts.
I did not go to church for two years. I shut down my life and withdrew into a black hole of despair. I thought that I could never get out. I wanted to end it all, too. I've been through anti-depressants and psychotherapy. Nothing really helped until I took ownership over my feelings.
This was the first step in climbing out of a deep dark hole. My next step was to realize that I could not carry the load myself. I had to humble myself and admit that I had messed up and nobody else was to blame. I took this to the Lord and there was no turning back. I was cured in one moment. It was as if a cloud had been removed.
God has been so good to me. He was all along. I just stopped seeing it. Instead I focused on the negative.
Satan's role is to deceive us. He condemns us and tells us that we are not worthy or lovable. He gets like a wedge between us and the Lord. He adds to our burden by giving us feelings of inadequacy and failure. God's job is to carry the load. We need to let him do it.
I have an incurable illness. I have had it for 16 years. I thought that life was not worth living because I was no longer the same person that I had been. I was measuring myself by a false standard.
I learned that I was still the same person. I just could not do the same things. I was still lovable and could still love others. I allowed myself to fall prey to Satan's lies.
Don't buy into lies. I've been down that road and it isn't pretty.
God loves us and that should be enough for us. We need to believe that we are lovable and allow his love to work in us and through us.
This will not be the end of disappointment in your life. Pain and suffering are a given because we live in a fallen world of our own making. We cannot blame God for our rebellion and the results of it.
Instead we need to accept things with grace and believe that God is in control. We need to place him in the driver's seat where he belongs. Then when we encounter obstacles, we can allow him to deal with them.
I read the Book of Job to keep things in perspective. I learned from Job that my condition is not due to my sins. I am not to blame and I learned from Job that I cannot allow others to place that unfair accusation on me. I learned from Job that the rightful person to blame is Satan. I learned that I have to persevere and that God sees my pain and suffering and that I do not need to bear it alone. I learned that God is sovereign in all situations and that I should relax and let him be in control. I also learned that God keeps his promises to the faithful and that I will be rewarded in the future.
Please reach out to God and a good Christian friend. Share your pain. Lay it at God's feet. Then get on with life. It can still be good if we allow ourselves to feel joy.
Praise God and thank him always for what he has done.
When you commit any act of the flesh that defrauds our neighbor, it is sin. Then the hedge comes down, and the powers of darkness move in to attack. But when you love your neighbor, you are fulfilling the law and are protected by God. “If you fulfill the royal law according o the scripture, Thou shalt love
Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: 
forgive, and ye shall be forgiven. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again” (Luke 6:36-38).
“Now will I sing to my well beloved a song of my beloved touching His vineyard. My well beloved hath vineyard in a very fruitful hill: And he fenced it, and gathered out of it the stones thereof, and planted it with the choicest vine... And He looked that it should bring forth grapes, and it brought forth wild grapes (it produced only the fruits of the flesh)... I will tell you what I will do to my vineyard: I will take away the hedge thereof, and it shall be eaten up; and break down the wall thereof, and it shall be trodden down” (Isa. 5:1, 2, 4, 5). 
