Last monday (6th August) we found out my 21 year old son's best friend of 10 years (also 21) was killed in a high speed car accident, along with another lad who was just 19 years old and who happened to be a close friend of my 19 year old son.
I have been dealing with their grief and also feeling quite bereft myself having known James, the best friend of my 21 year old son who used to visit here from time to time, and he was a lovely young man. My two sons will be pall-bearers to their respective friends at two separate funerals next week.
I am finding it really difficult to shake off this terrible sadness - I wish my boys didn't have to go through this and it breaks my heart that they have to face this at their young age.
I feel so devastated for the dead boys' parents and it feels like I am grieving with them, especially their mothers, probably because I am a mother too.
I just can't get this out of my head - first thing iin the morning and last thing at night I am thinking about James. He wasn't my friend, he was my son's friend but my heart is breaking all the same.
I think also the nature of the crash - they hit a tree at 80mph, after taking the car up to well over 100mph (it was a modified car which was supposed to be able to do 150mph) but this was totally out of character behaviour from the driver (James) and I think this just makes dealing with it harder as there are a lot of unanswered questions..
There's no one I can really talk to about it as I am having to be the strong one and get my boys through this, I guess just writing about it here will help get it off my chest.
thanks for listening
I have been dealing with their grief and also feeling quite bereft myself having known James, the best friend of my 21 year old son who used to visit here from time to time, and he was a lovely young man. My two sons will be pall-bearers to their respective friends at two separate funerals next week.
I am finding it really difficult to shake off this terrible sadness - I wish my boys didn't have to go through this and it breaks my heart that they have to face this at their young age.
I feel so devastated for the dead boys' parents and it feels like I am grieving with them, especially their mothers, probably because I am a mother too.
I just can't get this out of my head - first thing iin the morning and last thing at night I am thinking about James. He wasn't my friend, he was my son's friend but my heart is breaking all the same.
I think also the nature of the crash - they hit a tree at 80mph, after taking the car up to well over 100mph (it was a modified car which was supposed to be able to do 150mph) but this was totally out of character behaviour from the driver (James) and I think this just makes dealing with it harder as there are a lot of unanswered questions..
There's no one I can really talk to about it as I am having to be the strong one and get my boys through this, I guess just writing about it here will help get it off my chest.
thanks for listening
