Dui bu qi , wo hui shuo yidianr putonghua. Wo xian zai shuo ying wen: I have learned Chinese since I was a young teenager and I always feel peace about learning this language ( a calling) and some of the close people to me said God has given you this gift he will use this gift. Zhe ge wenti shi xue xi putongua feichang nan. I am lazy and even though I love this language and have and now also have Zhong guo de pengyou I find God's call difficult. I dont think God wants me to go to China or be a missionary there ( native Chinese Christians are doing a good job they probably dont need me) but I dont mind using this language in my home country. Can you encourage me? maybe we can speak chinese on this thread. I want to hear from Zhong guo jidu tu danyi fei jidu tu keyi gen shuo wo. Sorry I speak poor chinese.