I am kind of frustrated about cultural identity. I mean, I have "white" skin, yet my heritage is Native American, English, and German. I feel like as a white person that I am expected to just embrace the culture of mainstream society instead of being able to celebrate my heritage...I feel like whites are seen as not having a culture. I guess I just wish I could have a better cultural identity...I feel like a mut! Native American issues and concerns are very close to my heart. Thankfully my Dad always taught me to be proud of Native American roots, and I am glad I got the thick hair and reddish skin and all and I have a real love of nature and God's creation. But, my skin is still white, and my hair is not black. So, I really probably wouldn't be accepted among a group of full blooded or other Native Americans. I guess I feel like I'm missing out on something. I have thought of getting involved with a Native American student organization, but I am not registered with my tribe (Choctaw) so I can't prove my heritage. Maybe someday I can register, but I have tried to find my great grandmother's name listed on the Dawes Rolls so that I could register and her name was not on it. I don't know her birthdate. Anyway, has anyone had the same frustrations? What do you think of whites and developing a cultural identity?
hehe. Did this make sense?