crazy how this happens...

[BlackRain]

i'm not really expecting anyone to reply, i'm just saying this to keep myself accountable.
yall, for the past few days i've wanted to cut myself. i wrote it down and told myself i'd never do it again. i can't. this is hard. i feel weak tonight...i'm just not myself at all. i haven't really said much all day. i feel like i'm invisible and i have no idea why. i'm using all my strength to fight this but now i'm exhausted from it. i hate fighting what my eyes can't see. crazy. i want to go to bed, but i'm afraid once i get in my room i'll cut. and really, there's no reason for me to do that to begin with. ok, well, my mom...not even goin there...i cried enough today. i'm praying for daylight. if i can just get thru tonight i'll be ok. you know, i tell people to be strong and i tell them they can get thru what's goin on and now it's my turn and i'm finding it so hard to listen to my own advice. crazy how that happens. i'm taking a deeeeeep breath and i'm pressing on. maybe for the next few days i need to keep out of the SI forum so things don't tempt me. yeah, i think i'm gonna do that.

 

[always_hope]

I am praying for you right now.


Love,
Hope

 

[Cat59]

and now it's my turn and i'm finding it so hard to listen to my own advice. crazy how that happens

It happens to us all..
Deep breathes..

and for you

 

[wingcross]

Hi BlackRain,
God tell me to love myself.

I am not you. I know. I dunno what has happen to you. I only know that you been going through some hard time.

Try occupy your time and spend more time in this forum. If you have friends, try spend some time with them. That is my way. Even as i speak, I am not fine. Everyday I am under spiritual attack, every now and then. My aches alot.



Father,
This young lady is having the same emotional problem as me. I know she is in desperation. She need helps. Only You the Great Healer can heal heri of her pain. Father, pls give her wisdom and heal her. Remove all the suiciding thoughts from her. It is not holy. I know the thoughts are frm the devil.

I pray to You, begging for Your Mercy and Grace. She must go through tonight. I have went throught many nights. I praise You. I know You are protecting me. I know that you can protect her as well.

AS again,
I will give thanks to You, O Lord, . . . and sing praises to Your name. —2 Samuel 22:50

In your name, I prayed. Amen.