Craving for God.

[Icefloret]

I was in my bathroom thinking about thinks. I was thinking about God and asked myself a question or like I was personally talking to God in my head. I was thinking I can be brave to God, even be prudent to him. Instead of being afraid. I understand being afraid of him when I out ruled myself to him and I hurt myself with sin and turn to hell. Thats when I should feel the fear. But, I do think when being brave to him when I'm not that sinful. I like doing things with God. I like giving him anything. I like to see him come to my door. If he was around the world, I like to bake him food or anything to give him my ability to show my love. I like to talk to him to him about anything that I'm not sure of. I have a lot of things I don't know about him and having the bravery is the thing for Faith. Thats in 2 timothy 1:7. I was thinking about that before I read this. I looked up about it because when I decided I like to show bravery to God. I craved the blood of the Lord in my mouth, I felt that spiritual feeling that the grape juice was dripping from my teeth. Down the throught and glands. And I liked to have more. I feel like a vampire to his flesh. And I don't know to myself to be a Vampire to him.

I would be to depending to his flesh. I was thinking of drinking the grape juice offered from the store. I know Easter is coming and the rememberance is coming. I know I have to come to it. Getting grape juice is good to do that at home too. I think having crackers is good to have the bread but I wonder if its good enough?

 

[blong4133]

Personally talking to God in your head is praying! I'm sure you already realize that, but prayer doesn't have to be some formal proceeding. I simply talk to Him. Ask him for guidance and help in my every day life.

You should always be brave when talking to God. He is the reason you're here! He is the reason you are who you are, he is the reason for everything about you! Even when you are sinful, you should still be brave when talking to Him, but also, you must maintain your humility. Because without Him, our lives mean nothing. We are sinful beings, and he sent his son to be crucified so that we can be sinful and still be admitted to heaven. It's not a free pass to be sinful, but we sin every day; it is a simple fact of being human. But even in our sinfulness, we should still reach out to God as we always do with the sincerity of meaning what we say, the bravery to ask for his guidance, and the humility to acknowledge our faults and ask for His forgiveness.

I'm not sure if drinking the grape juice or crackers would actually suffice as communion, but I'm not theologian so I'll leave that one up to someone else. But it is very uplifting for me to read your dedication to the Lord, and I hope that He will work on me as he has you, and instill in me the deep passion for Him that is present in your words here!

God Bless!

 

[Icefloret]

I thought of Grape Juice and Crackers as a emergence for the communion. For anyone that can anwser it. Because since I was in the hospital. I was in a not right in mind for my schizophrenia. I relied on what I had since the grape juice was used at my church. Because they did not like to tipsy the child with the wine. And the crackers I used because it doesn't contain yeast. So, I had to use that if I needed it. When I was away from the church.