Court tomorrow

[zsepthenne]

I have to go to court tomorrow to get my criminal protective order put back to "no contact". I REALLY don't want to see my abuser/ex-husband. We were married in a church only ceremony on mar 3, he beat me almost to death on the 14th. Even then I had a spirit of forgiveness (or stupidity) and pled with the court to sentence him to rehab and batterers classes, of course. We were given a "peaceful" order of protection, and I was able to visit him in rehab. He was kicked out of rehab (salvation army) for trying to steal me a diamond ring! I had him home here with me, I couldn't turn on the water hose without him watching, if I want to read at night i had to be in bed beside him, the caller id was cheked as was my cell and car, he went through the bathroom trash, i couldn't wear jeans or fitted shirts, I was so exhausted after a week I didn't let him back home when he left to work.
I can't get the image out of my mind of him spitting in my face and calling my a harlot (I supposedly had an affair with my next door neighbor), him almost biting a chunk out of my neck, I almost lost the ends of three fingers, and half of my hair is finally growing back in. I know he broke a part of me and I fear it won't ever come back.
I just wish for my peace of mind that there was something concrete about being able to divorce your husband, in my book it should be ahead of adultery, heck I surely would've rather been cheated on! I would like to think that Jesus wouldn't condemn me for what I'm going to do tomorrow, and I hear a voice that essentially tells me it's ok, but now is a time I could really use a definitive note from God.

 

[zsepthenne]

I was scared and nervous, but I felt empowered afterwards. I wasn't given a modification for my criminal protective order as his attorney objected it. They made "no contact" a part of his probation instead.
Was strange sitting in the domestic violence court and looking at all the other women, and at all the other abusers who showed up for their court hearings.
I know I can't be the only woman on here who's been beaten by her husband. Though the lack of response might indicate so.
I thank the Lord for his support and keeping me strong today.

 

[BroGinder]

I was scared and nervous, but I felt empowered afterwards. I wasn't given a modification for my criminal protective order as his attorney objected it. They made "no contact" a part of his probation instead.
Was strange sitting in the domestic violence court and looking at all the other women, and at all the other abusers who showed up for their court hearings.
I know I can't be the only woman on here who's been beaten by her husband. Though the lack of response might indicate so.
I thank the Lord for his support and keeping me strong today.

2 Cor 4:8-9
8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
KJV

I was a Police Officer for many years and I have seen the devestation abuse has on the family. Rest asured you are not alone nor where you ever alone. God is and has always been there for you. There are also many who are and have been in the same situation you faced and are facing.

You survived and are in his kingdom to bring power, strength to those who are feeling distraught, let down, cast down, forgotten. You are the light Jesus is going to use to release them, to empower them, to loosen them form the grasp of the enemy.

You can not spell the word testmony without the word Test. It takes a Test to give us a Testimony. You keep your voice high, loud and proud. God delivered you for a moment such as this.

God Bless you for your boldness to come out with your testimony.

 

[Concetta]

Sorry I have just seen this thread.

As a former DV counsellor and legal advocate, I applaud your courage and conviction. Never doubt that you are NOT alone. I am proud of you for going through all that you have, standing tall, and not losing your faith. God bless you.

Intimidators are cowards at heart. Stay strong.

 

[Jazzedforhim]

While I have never been beaten, I was in a mentally abusive relationship for seven years. It ended when he did "put his hands on me" and seriously hurt my neck while slamming me into the ground. I was done at that point!

I write this only to tell you that I thought a part of me was gone...that I could never recover. That was partially true...I never loved the same way again. But I also never thought I'd be able to trust again. I never thought I'd love again. The Lord restored me, and he changed my heart, and when I did meet my hubby the impossible happened. I fell in love...and this time it was "real" love with Christ at the center.

God bless you...hang in there. God is with you and will never leave you. Protect yourself...you are worthy of the best...not because of what you do or who you are but because you are a child of God and he loves you enough to die for your sins! He loves you! He loves you! You are loveable. Don't believe the lies of the enemy...Satan! You stand up and put your body armor on and tell Satan to get behind you! From now on you walk by faith in God's path...not in chains in Satan's pit!

I am praying for you!

 

[zsepthenne]

Thank you for all the positive replies
I hope I heal and have a relationship one day too, Jazzedforhim. I am trying to keep those lies out of my head.
Thanks for prayers and thoughts.

 

[restore]

I feel stuck when I read this post....
I just feel so hard to blieve, so hard to believe.........
Sister,Pls know the lord is there when those crime r happening, u r not alone.:o

 

[Jazzedforhim]

Thank you for all the positive replies
I hope I heal and have a relationship one day too, Jazzedforhim. I am trying to keep those lies out of my head.
Thanks for prayers and thoughts.

I will keep praying....

 

[Skeeterbug]

I have to go to court tomorrow to get my criminal protective order put back to "no contact". I REALLY don't want to see my abuser/ex-husband. We were married in a church only ceremony on mar 3, he beat me almost to death on the 14th. Even then I had a spirit of forgiveness (or stupidity) and pled with the court to sentence him to rehab and batterers classes, of course. We were given a "peaceful" order of protection, and I was able to visit him in rehab. He was kicked out of rehab (salvation army) for trying to steal me a diamond ring! I had him home here with me, I couldn't turn on the water hose without him watching, if I want to read at night i had to be in bed beside him, the caller id was cheked as was my cell and car, he went through the bathroom trash, i couldn't wear jeans or fitted shirts, I was so exhausted after a week I didn't let him back home when he left to work.
I can't get the image out of my mind of him spitting in my face and calling my a harlot (I supposedly had an affair with my next door neighbor), him almost biting a chunk out of my neck, I almost lost the ends of three fingers, and half of my hair is finally growing back in. I know he broke a part of me and I fear it won't ever come back.
I just wish for my peace of mind that there was something concrete about being able to divorce your husband, in my book it should be ahead of adultery, heck I surely would've rather been cheated on! I would like to think that Jesus wouldn't condemn me for what I'm going to do tomorrow, and I hear a voice that essentially tells me it's ok, but now is a time I could really use a definitive note from God.

Even Though G-d commanded us to forgive others he never commanded us to lay down and be a punching bag for someone else. I have been abused in my life and this may sound lame. my advice is to totally give all of it to G-d. ask him to surround you with a hedge of Angels. Remember he is with you even when you don't feel it. For confort read Psalms

 

[Mayflower1]

I am sorry to hear thiszs. It is hard to even imagine what that must be like, but keep your head up. Shara

 

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