People tell me to stop thinking about negative situations and focus on your life. Each time i do that, I cant forget about these individuals, makes wonder why are they like that. Why do they have to have a negative view of life.
Why do they nag? I find them repulsive. They are all over the place. They are very close to me. Somebody i love. There is that confusion do i really love them, after i show my bitterness toward them. Could i have handled these people better? Is their something wrong with me, as they continue to frustrate me, create this tension within me. Even when i'm calm its no use, thoughts about them creep up. I wish i could never think about them ever again. Then i think about these individuals, criticise them in my head. It makes me feel good and justified. When it becomes a constant cycle, I feel like something is wrong with me. Actually i spent great deal of time, around positive supportive people.
Then when i see people that make my day miserable, my mood changes. i think of the many ways how they are wrong about what they say. I shrug my shoulders you dont bother me. In reality, they get to me as i ponder about them in my head, defending myself. If i wish i can stop thinking about them for even a second. Then i ask myself why do I even think about them, at a deeper level? I realised i have this expectation, that they should behave the way, I see in my social circle, that positive and supportive environment. When they don't meet that expectation, it makes me think. Why cant they be positive, what hinders them, whats is the root of their problem. How can i bring them into my world. In reality, some people will never change. They will never understand my world.
Why do they nag? I find them repulsive. They are all over the place. They are very close to me. Somebody i love. There is that confusion do i really love them, after i show my bitterness toward them. Could i have handled these people better? Is their something wrong with me, as they continue to frustrate me, create this tension within me. Even when i'm calm its no use, thoughts about them creep up. I wish i could never think about them ever again. Then i think about these individuals, criticise them in my head. It makes me feel good and justified. When it becomes a constant cycle, I feel like something is wrong with me. Actually i spent great deal of time, around positive supportive people.
Then when i see people that make my day miserable, my mood changes. i think of the many ways how they are wrong about what they say. I shrug my shoulders you dont bother me. In reality, they get to me as i ponder about them in my head, defending myself. If i wish i can stop thinking about them for even a second. Then i ask myself why do I even think about them, at a deeper level? I realised i have this expectation, that they should behave the way, I see in my social circle, that positive and supportive environment. When they don't meet that expectation, it makes me think. Why cant they be positive, what hinders them, whats is the root of their problem. How can i bring them into my world. In reality, some people will never change. They will never understand my world.
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