Monica
You are rushing into things

Please slow down and become a Communicant in the Catholic Church before you try and catch up with everything .
This Consecration to Jesus through Mary is not something to be undertaken lightly . Many people do not understand that it is giving yourself totally to Jesus - try looking at the definition of slave - it's very very deep .
BUT first Monica must become Catholic !!!
She is not yet
Please Monica - leave this alone till you are
wow Anhelyna

- I don't want you to be so worried, I was actually planning on becoming Catholic first and then doing this. (if I will). But I thought I'd just read about it and familiarize myself with it. I'm planning on becoming Catholic sometime this winter - perhaps January, depending on what the priest says - I need some guidance from him and will meet up with him soon again.
I know the way I phrased my post, it sounds like I'm very confused about the theology of this and have no idea what it means. Well admittedly I need to educate myself more about it. But in my heart it has made sense to me for a while now. It's more like I need to catch up on my knowledge. And of course I need to grow spiritually too, and that will come God willing.
I do realize that it's essentially like being a slave. I also know that as a result I would have to give myself up and that God might call me to difficult things that require self sacrifice. This might include suffering and trials. I never thought it would be a fun easy thing, nor do I think that I'm strong enough. I'm actually pretty weak, and God has to entirely sustain me by His grace even in the simplest of trials. The point is, I don't believe that weakness is an obstacle, but rather something God can use if we surrender it to Him, with trust, and rely on His strength. I don't talk about this, but about a month ago I had a strange sort of experience where God told me that He wants me to let go of myself entirely. I told Him I would, I also asked Him to teach me how to love Him with all my heart and all my mind and soul. When I first read about this consecration it seemed like a fulfillment of this. But I decided to first read and pray about it, become Catholic and receive the Eucharist, and someday seek spiritual direction from a priest. I do believe that God will help me though if I make this decision, even if I won't feel Him helping me. I also believe that Mary will be there with me.
But she is already Orthodox I believe... Not the same as coming from a purely protestant background. To leave Orthodoxy (I'm sure it's the same for Catholicism) is a huge step, not one to take lightly. To convert first and then learn about the faith doesn't make much sense.
I'm not taking it lightly

I'm taking it very seriously.
(not so much talking about leaving Orthodoxy, but becoming Catholic. Because for me it's not so much leaving something, as it is coming to something else. I dont' have anything against Orthodoxy)