Confused

[JacobVY]

Hello, I am in need of information and prayer. These past couple months I been in deep confusion. God has saved me from near death experiences and so on. I feel as God has turned his ear away from me. I feel as God ignores me. I feel as everything I do is wrong and God is going to curse me. I fear God for his power that he is going to put out nothing but bad on me. This might be all over the place. I am going to type out what I feel. I feel has if something is saying "don't type that because God will curse you." I struggled with Porn and prayed about it and currently 31 days clean. Never been more then 10 days clean for the past 6 years. (Im 18)
I don't feel peace, or the holy spirit. Maybe I am just overlooking it but dont feel what pastors and people say "I feel the spirit in this room." "I feel the love/peace from God." I had a life without God doing unholy things for a while but during early quarantine I realized that I want a life with God. I left everything for God. I have committed some sins before quarantine that I hate and truly regret. And I cant really forgive myself / stop thinking about it. While re-reading this I realized a-lot of "God." And the "Only way a man can get to God is through Jesus." Quote came into my head. How could I walk with Jesus? Sorry for being all over the place. I am just tired of being confused and feeling that God has turned his ear from me from my wrong-doings.

 

[Landon Caeli]

Hello, I am in need of information and prayer. These past couple months I been in deep confusion. God has saved me from near death experiences and so on. I feel as God has turned his ear away from me. I feel as God ignores me. I feel as everything I do is wrong and God is going to curse me. I fear God for his power that he is going to put out nothing but bad on me. This might be all over the place. I am going to type out what I feel. I feel has if something is saying "don't type that because God will curse you." I struggled with Porn and prayed about it and currently 31 days clean. Never been more then 10 days clean for the past 6 years. (Im 18)
I don't feel peace, or the holy spirit. Maybe I am just overlooking it but dont feel what pastors and people say "I feel the spirit in this room." "I feel the love/peace from God." I had a life without God doing unholy things for a while but during early quarantine I realized that I want a life with God. I left everything for God. I have committed some sins before quarantine that I hate and truly regret. And I cant really forgive myself / stop thinking about it. While re-reading this I realized a-lot of "God." And the "Only way a man can get to God is through Jesus." Quote came into my head. How could I walk with Jesus? Sorry for being all over the place. I am just tired of being confused and feeling that God has turned his ear from me from my wrong-doings.

How are your finances?

 

[JacobVY]

How are your finances?

How would my finances be important?
Happy Thanksgiving as well.

 

[Stephanie7]

Heavenly Father deliver this one from confusion and show him that even though we aren't deserving, we are saved by Your Grace, You sent Your Son Jesus to forgive us, and our sins are wiped clean and remembered no more. LORD show JacobVY Your love and peace and get through to his heart, so he can believe that he has been forgiven of his sins, In Jesus Name, Amen

 

[KayScarpettaFan]

Dear brother, you are so young. Walking for a lifetime with the Lord you will experience and know that God will never curse you, He loves you, that you feel It or not. There Is a Christian Song in my country and it says "I will not live for what I see, I will not live for what I feel, I will live for what I believe.". I know that sometimes It feels like God is far from you, but It Is simply not true. I commend you for your commitment in battling porn. Fight also the underlying sadness in your Heart. In Jesus name, amen

 

[UnpopularOpinion]

Hello, I am in need of information and prayer. These past couple months I been in deep confusion. God has saved me from near death experiences and so on. I feel as God has turned his ear away from me. I feel as God ignores me. I feel as everything I do is wrong and God is going to curse me. I fear God for his power that he is going to put out nothing but bad on me. This might be all over the place. I am going to type out what I feel. I feel has if something is saying "don't type that because God will curse you." I struggled with Porn and prayed about it and currently 31 days clean. Never been more then 10 days clean for the past 6 years. (Im 18)
I don't feel peace, or the holy spirit. Maybe I am just overlooking it but dont feel what pastors and people say "I feel the spirit in this room." "I feel the love/peace from God." I had a life without God doing unholy things for a while but during early quarantine I realized that I want a life with God. I left everything for God. I have committed some sins before quarantine that I hate and truly regret. And I cant really forgive myself / stop thinking about it. While re-reading this I realized a-lot of "God." And the "Only way a man can get to God is through Jesus." Quote came into my head. How could I walk with Jesus? Sorry for being all over the place. I am just tired of being confused and feeling that God has turned his ear from me from my wrong-doings.

For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

If u want to feel joy preach the gospel to unbelievers , these who convert give joy.