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[CanIBeBornAgain]

man ya'll,i'll just say it. Nothing ya'll have been praying for is being answered. it's been getting worse. I still haven't been able to realize my sin, the Cross, and the Godly Sorrow i need. BUT NOW, after all that's been happening, HOW can i?

I grew up going to church and all that. Then years went by didn't think much about it. Then in 8th grade started going to the youth group and stuff, i thought was a Christian then. A couple of more years, then this past July, i realized some prophecies and how true this has all been and as well, i needed to be able to see myself as lost, repentent, sorry, the Cross, and that i needed to realize only Jesus can save me. I knew that i wasn't Christian then. And it's been hectic all the way up to now. I haven't been able to quit, the evil thoughts never left, the pornography, the adultery, the Cross, i haven't been able to be broken over all this. And i've told a ton of people about this, and prayers have gone out, now, it's hard to ask for a prayer request because it either won't happen, or God just sees something in me that can't be broken.

This is serious but NOW, it's all about fear. Yet why couldn't i have realized the Cross, my sin way before it got bad like this. It makes me think of "My Sheep Know my voice", if i'm His sheep something will happen, but if not, why is all this happening, why can't i get real. It makes me sad, makes me envious, how did ya'll do it? Thanks.

 

[NewSong]

man ya'll,i'll just say it. Nothing ya'll have been praying for is being answered. it's been getting worse. I still haven't been able to realize my sin, the Cross, and the Godly Sorrow i need. BUT NOW, after all that's been happening, HOW can i?

I grew up going to church and all that. Then years went by didn't think much about it. Then in 8th grade started going to the youth group and stuff, i thought was a Christian then. A couple of more years, then this past July, i realized some prophecies and how true this has all been and as well, i needed to be able to see myself as lost, repentent, sorry, the Cross, and that i needed to realize only Jesus can save me. I knew that i wasn't Christian then. And it's been hectic all the way up to now. I haven't been able to quit, the evil thoughts never left, the pornography, the adultery, the Cross, i haven't been able to be broken over all this. And i've told a ton of people about this, and prayers have gone out, now, it's hard to ask for a prayer request because it either won't happen, or God just sees something in me that can't be broken.

This is serious but NOW, it's all about fear. Yet why couldn't i have realized the Cross, my sin way before it got bad like this. It makes me think of "My Sheep Know my voice", if i'm His sheep something will happen, but if not, why is all this happening, why can't i get real. It makes me sad, makes me envious, how did ya'll do it? Thanks.

Dear "CanIbebornagain"

I am praying that you realize that God wants you to be born again and it is not by works of righteousness and I pray for you to realize that God has not given you the Spirit of fear but of power and of love and of sound mind. I pray that you would have revelation of His love and how He longs for you to just accept by faith that He has and is forgiving you and that it is not by feeling for we walk by faith and not by sight~ I pray that God will show you by His Spirit of how He is your Shepherd and you are His sheep and how He will always go after the one lost sheep and should that be you, then you can relax and believe God will find you and I am praying for you to keep your eyes on Jesus and not on your situations, or where you think you are in Christ Jesus. I pray that you would let Him love you with His everlasting love and let Him heal you in your wounded spirit and that you would hate sin and love God and cling to what is good~

I am praying for you dear friend!

In His Love,
NewSong

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

Dear Friend, the fac that you are seeking the Lord is from the Lord. That's the first step. And getting the godly sorrow will come. Here's how: ask the Lord to take control of your life and give you the repentance you need. Then, this is where it get's hardest: just recognizing the simplicity of it. God promised:

I John 1:9

1:9If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

That is a promise. Tell the Lord about it all, and even if you don't see His work, tell Him that (respectfully, of course) and then just tell Him you're waiting. And then simply wait and do what you can to get rid of the things in the way. Throw out the magazines, and don't go to stores that sell them. If you cut off opportunity, the Lord will help you. Pray in the time of need. We have a promise there, too:

Hebrews 4:14-5:10:



4:14Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession.

4:15For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.

4:16Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Hebrews 5

5:1For every high priest taken from among men is appointed for men in things pertaining to God, that he may offer both gifts and sacrifices for sins.

5:2He can have compassion on those who are ignorant and going astray, since he himself is also subject to weakness.

5:3Because of this he is required as for the people, so also for himself, to offer sacrifices for sins.

5:4And no man takes this honor to himself, but he who is called by God, just as Aaron was.

5:5So also Christ did not glorify Himself to become High Priest, but it was He who said to Him: "You are My Son, Today I have begotten You."

5:6As He also says in another place: "You are a priest forever According to the order of Melchizedek";

5:7who, in the days of His flesh, when He had offered up prayers and supplications, with vehement cries and tears to Him who was able to save Him from death, and was heard because of His godly fear,

5:8though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered.

5:9And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him,

5:10called by God as High Priest "according to the order of Melchizedek

He will be there for you. Have you asked confessed sin to the Lord, confessed that Jesus is the Son of God, and asked Him to be your Lord and Savior? That has to be the first step before we can have access to any of these promises. If so, then it's a matter of waiting on Him. If not, that's the beginning.

Many blessings to you.

 

[Izzy23]

Hi CanIbebornagain~ I agree with all of the above. Keep searching and asking God for direction. He is faithful when we are not.

Peace and Love

 

[bought_with_blood]

"So often we get caught up in all the wrongs, rights, 'spiritual feelings', etc etc. and all our Heavenly Father wants is to have a relationship with us and bless us." (Brian Houston)

I probably havn't got the right end of the stick, but it wont hurt just to sit (or stand or lie) and tell God you'd like to meet Him. Don't worry about the words you might want to say, or any feelings you might like to feel. He just wants to meet and bless you, and probably in a way you wont expect.

Let me know how you get on. I'm praying for you.

<><

 

[BattleAxe]

Dearly Beloved by God:

The devil is a liar and you should begin to tell him so. He told me those same lies for years. God, who was all wise and all knowing MUST have seen something in me that He is appalled at and can't be fixed. That I was beyond dirty and there was no cleaning to me. THAT DEVIL IS A LIAR.

Beloved you are seeking and striving and that is God drawing you near. But before you can come near, the enemy of your soul destracts you with thoughts of being unworthy. Well, the bible says we are all filthy rags before Him.

Is. 64:6 But we are all like an unclean thing, And all our righteousnesses are like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away.

None of us are worthy, thats why Jesus died for us. PLEASE KEEP SEEKING, KEEP PRAYING AND DON'T GIVE UP ON GOD.
It may seem like He is not listening, not seeing or simply won't respond but that is not true. Jesus is at work even now and the day fast approaches when He will reveal Himself in your life.

 

[CanIBeBornAgain]

man ya'll. I'm a big talker. I ask for all these prayers and stuff, but the next day, my sin basically blocks them. I'm still in bondage. Nothing gets done. I hate it, i don't expect it, then all of a sudden thing for porn comes on and i still do this. This cycle of Goin out, Talking to God, then having prayer for me, yet still sin like ****, willingly. Lost. What do ya'll think?

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

man ya'll. I'm a big talker. I ask for all these prayers and stuff, but the next day, my sin basically blocks them. I'm still in bondage. Nothing gets done. I hate it, i don't expect it, then all of a sudden thing for porn comes on and i still do this. This cycle of Goin out, Talking to God, then having prayer for me, yet still sin like ****, willingly. Lost. What do ya'll think?

It takes time. And it's crucial to wait for it. Sometimes the Lord does answer right away, but more frequently He waits and works in us gradually. The key thing is to remember that righteousness is a gift from Him. So if you trust Him, He will send it.

Again, it's important to have a strategy set up in dealing with any sin. You have to plan in advance what you're going to do when you're tempted. God is bigger than sin. What He requires is your trust. When He has that, even if you slip up, just pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and keep walking. It's how you handle any sin, and eventually you will have victory because God promised it. The slipup is in the past. Forget it, forgive yourself, but then move on. Keep fighting.

It might help too, to remember that outward situations begin with an inward thought. So it may not just be the porn, but it may be starting earlier with a thought. Attack those thoughts, and the outward situations will be removed as well. There's a book you might want to read by Joyce Myer called Battlefield of the Mind: Winning the Battle in Your Mind. It's a really good book. And you can apply it to any area of your life. Good stuff.

 

[convinced101]

Just 2 say that I agree with what the above is sayin
God shows his love in many many ways and he will show it to you, you jst have to keep searchin and you will find his love! He never leaves nebody behind
You are in my prayers