Yesterday, he filed for the divorce. We are still living together. He in fact, is already searching for his next wife . . . I found this out from his secretive internet activity.
It was a short marriage, only 2 years. But I put a lot into this emotionally. There is a lot of hurt, much heart break. He conned me. He took all my money, spent it and now he is moving on to his next quest.
I am penniless, not sure where I can live or if I'll end up homeless. Thank GOD there are no young children involved. I am disabled and constantly in a battle with chronic fatigue and pain. I can't work because of this. I have surgery scheduled for next month. I am so stressed, and yet in such a fatigued state, that I can do almost nothing. I am powerless . . . Only GOD substains me!
But what really hurts is how he conned me. He was the wolf is sheeps clothing. A pastor, yes and I was the pastor's wife. He was respected and loved by some of his close congregation. YET it was all in act. A betrayal. He doesn't know how to love. Doesn't know how to have emotional attachment. He is narcistic and yet suffers from low self esteem. And is extremely codependent. That is why he is already searching for his next victim. He can't stand the thought of being alone.
He has no sex drive, the only time he wanted to kiss and cuddle was while we were dating. Maybe this really wasn't a marriage, since he wouldn't give of himself physically in the bed. How simple it would be to save the marriage I told him, all he would have to do is learn to love me, really love me.
He's moving on. But this time I have nothing left. He spent all my money, 16,000 gone to dust and now I live off of a small disability payment. I was such a fool. Why didn't I see it coming.
Just need prayer please! Thanks for taking the time to read this.
It was a short marriage, only 2 years. But I put a lot into this emotionally. There is a lot of hurt, much heart break. He conned me. He took all my money, spent it and now he is moving on to his next quest.
I am penniless, not sure where I can live or if I'll end up homeless. Thank GOD there are no young children involved. I am disabled and constantly in a battle with chronic fatigue and pain. I can't work because of this. I have surgery scheduled for next month. I am so stressed, and yet in such a fatigued state, that I can do almost nothing. I am powerless . . . Only GOD substains me!
But what really hurts is how he conned me. He was the wolf is sheeps clothing. A pastor, yes and I was the pastor's wife. He was respected and loved by some of his close congregation. YET it was all in act. A betrayal. He doesn't know how to love. Doesn't know how to have emotional attachment. He is narcistic and yet suffers from low self esteem. And is extremely codependent. That is why he is already searching for his next victim. He can't stand the thought of being alone.
He has no sex drive, the only time he wanted to kiss and cuddle was while we were dating. Maybe this really wasn't a marriage, since he wouldn't give of himself physically in the bed. How simple it would be to save the marriage I told him, all he would have to do is learn to love me, really love me.
He's moving on. But this time I have nothing left. He spent all my money, 16,000 gone to dust and now I live off of a small disability payment. I was such a fool. Why didn't I see it coming.
Just need prayer please! Thanks for taking the time to read this.
