So lets start with this about me: I have been saved and baptized and I love God but it seems like I never can get it right.I left an abusive marriage after several years of attempting and now 2 yrs later my children who also wanted away from him are choosing him over me, my oldest daughter is in and out of trouble facing prison, I reunited with my teenage sweetheart and then I discovered his hidden secrets so that ended. My parents are dead I have no family support I feel burdened down and alone, Im struggling everyday to keep things going but I feel as though Im always on the verge of losing everything. I dont feel as though I belong anywhere and Im so depressed idk what to do.I see other people make life seem so easy and enjoy it so much but I dont even want to walk to my mailbox. I just feel trapped inside myself and very alone.