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I have been referred to a rheumatologist for a possible diagnosis of fibromyalgia. I have such horrific pain, worse than last year, it is almost driving me to tears on a good day. I cannot see the rheumatologist till Christmas Eve, and went to my regular doctor today to get help, because I almost went to the ER over the weekend.
You see, I am in a medicinal bind. I cannot take NSAIDs, like Ibuprofen, or Aleve, because of my gastric bypass surgery and history of ulcers. Narcotics are out, due to my addiction history. That leaves Tylenol, which does zip for me, and Cymbalta, which I am already on for my depression. My doc prescribed Ultram, which I had when I broke my foot and toe in recent months.
I learned tonight that medical marijuana is supposed to be great for my pain. Yikes!!! Right now, my state has not legalized it for medicinal purposes. There is no way I will seek it out on the street. But, I never dreamed I would get to the point where physical pain would have me willing to chuck my recovery and get narcotics in the past five months. I have even had the same insane thoughts I had last year concerning drinking to get rid of the pain. I just am determined that this year, I will not give up my recovery no matter what. But, it is shaky at this point.
I am trying not to have self-pity, or whine, but this has really thrown me for a loop, and makes me feel so scared.
Trish
You see, I am in a medicinal bind. I cannot take NSAIDs, like Ibuprofen, or Aleve, because of my gastric bypass surgery and history of ulcers. Narcotics are out, due to my addiction history. That leaves Tylenol, which does zip for me, and Cymbalta, which I am already on for my depression. My doc prescribed Ultram, which I had when I broke my foot and toe in recent months.
I learned tonight that medical marijuana is supposed to be great for my pain. Yikes!!! Right now, my state has not legalized it for medicinal purposes. There is no way I will seek it out on the street. But, I never dreamed I would get to the point where physical pain would have me willing to chuck my recovery and get narcotics in the past five months. I have even had the same insane thoughts I had last year concerning drinking to get rid of the pain. I just am determined that this year, I will not give up my recovery no matter what. But, it is shaky at this point.
I am trying not to have self-pity, or whine, but this has really thrown me for a loop, and makes me feel so scared.
Trish
