Today I had a test for my last class in my last semester for community college. I am graduating in 3 weeks and felt the pressure.
I had not studied due to Extreme anxiety issues I've been having lately. The anxieties and worries have been crippling me and I can't sleep or enjoy life.
So my friend tried to lend a and as he know my struggles and at first I knew it was wrong but the pressure off needing to pass that class was too much. There was so much at stake... Graduation, transfer to a 4yr university, passing the class.
I find myself guilty now and with more anxiety than ever. I feel like maybe I should confess but don't know if it is God telling me that.
Pleas any advice would help.
First off, making yourself even more anxious than you are already will only make things worse.
You do, however, have every reason to be anxious about cheating: that was academically and intellectually dishonest of you. There is no valid excue for it and yes, it was a sin. That is why you are so troubled; because you know it is and you are scared.
If you had anxieties before, you should have sought help to deal with your emotions and worries. Whether it be parents, pastor/priest, friends, or the school psychologist, they could have helped you out. Unfortunately, that didn't happen, although now you know what to do next time.
You do have to confess what you've done, and not just to God. You need to admit to your professer what you did; you do
not have the right to just "get away" from the consequences. That's going to be very difficult, but you owe it to yourself more than anyone else. If someone lies, he or she confess that he or she did and tells the truth; no one gets away without rectifying things; the confession is meaningless...nor does a person get to keep an item he or she stole; they must give it back. You have a way to rectify the situation you are in and you are morally obligated to admit the truth and deal with the consequences.
If you are lucky, all that might occur is that you must take an alternative test. Or, you may face graver consequences. Either way, your guilt will not end until you do what you know to be right, no matter how hard it will be to do.
I am sorry that this has happened to you. I pray you will allow God to convince you to do the right thing. You will recover from this mistake and become a stronger and more faithful person if you do; I can guarantee that.